A Memoir

As I sit back in the shadow of a me once riddled with confusion, lost within a version of myself that untangled everything in me to uncover. I look back on all this took, on all the hard work I put in to get to this moment. A memento mori of a memoir. A misguided kid who healed his inner child, who stood up for the broken parts of himself. A man who wanted nothing but to be loved in a world full of hate. A Lesser God who just wanted to fulfill his purpose. In an arena of my own making. A world I saw burning from lies, deceit and misinformation. Slaved minds think alike, and misery loves its own company. So I stood at the edge of misunderstanding, I allowed the condemning of myself so that I could reach others. People who seek truth, in a world full of illusions. Beings meant for greater, for further, for legacy beyond this realm; divinity. I took it all on the chin so others could rise, so others could feel. Feel my heart, my presence, my patience, my persistence. Who saw a light at the end of their own tunnels. Who wanted to ascend into a life full of feeling, full of healing, full of love, full of playfulness. To stand front & center without waver, and create from my minds eye; a life that I truly desired, that felt like home, that moved me.

I wrote The Book of Life; not for glory, not for opinion, not for judgment, not to rebel. But, to prove that going further beyond any boundaries of a world that enslaves you to its own cravings of control; would free you. To trail blaze the path that anyone could break those chains, that the Angels sent here to look like you & me, are real. That they walk among you in plain sight. That they are only here to uplift your life, and be a blessing in it. To show you what’s truly possible. I wrote all of this because I was given a gift, and no it’s not perfect; instead far from it. That’s what makes it so special. I never wanted it to be perfect, I wanted it to be REAL. To be authentic to myself, my own journey. I gave you the inside scoop to a mind that has expanded past the paradigms your world tried to place upon me. I wrote it to express my pain, my dreams, my desires, my future. I used this entire story to rewrite not only my own life’s history, but to rewrite destiny. Those who couldn’t see the vision, were never going to. They’d rather judge it, critique it, mock it, steal it, make fun & destroy someone who was simply sent here to pave a new road forward. To show you how to manifest through the heart, through true righteousness, through REAL magic in prayer.

We are all condemned for our pasts, for our mistakes, for who we USED to be. But no one has ever taken the time to truly dive deep enough into drowning; destroying the narrative of what others watered down. What they thought of me, what they said about me, of who I used to be, of the person I never was. The truth is, no one knows who I am, they never did. They never saw this coming. They only see their own reflections in the mirror I hold up to their faceless figures, of what they never thought possible within their own lives. They look at me and thought it could never be me. That I could never be who I claimed to be. But it was never up to them. God never cared about their opinions, or what they thought of their own realities. In reality those who judge the most, are the ones who don’t even know themselves. So they seek a savior, they demand salvation. From their own inner turmoil that they’re too timid to face on their own. They would rather gossip, and believe their own lies, in their own minuscule lives; to feel better about their free choices to not find the truth within themselves. The truth about who they truly are. They aren’t concerned with that clarity, they are more equipped to focus on my own. They try an claw their way into my mind to try and convince me I’m not who God says that I am, that I’m not the Son who came back again. They prod and pry into my life, to find dirt, to conjure up falsehoods, to convince everyone I could never be the anomaly. Little old me, the miracle child born from stardust. All I ever wanted to be when I grew up was a superhero; I wanted to save the world, I wanted to save myself. I wanted to save those I loved. Today, I can honestly say-- I don’t know if I fulfilled that plan yet. But I have faith that God will make it all clear to me, as he will for you.

I wrote this book because I wanted to speak my truth, when everyone tried to shut me up. So I could show the girl of my dreams that she was an Angel just like me. She was my muse to this story, my inspiration, my light that I needed-- to walk in. She came to me in what you call “dreams”, but they were never dreams to me. It was a place I had never seen before, a place that glows with clear colors of the soul. A realm far away from here that only lives within a conscious mind of awakened angels. Where we signed our soul contract in signatures of sigils, where I bared witness of my own undressing; to the masked skin I wear on the outside world. I let her see me for ALL that I am, because I wanted her to see who God made me into. I wanted her to know that no matter what the outside world saw me as; What she saw in there-- is the real me, who I’ve always been. Deep beneath the covering of a hooded cloak I felt like I needed to hide in. Invisible to a world that I thought would never understand me, would never accept me, would never see my true color. That is why I only ever let her see it. Because I trusted her, I trusted that she would find me to be everything she was ever searching for. A connection that bends the reality of time, space, and dreams. A knowing that there will NEVER be someone who can do the things I can.

I made it my mission to complete my book for Gods purpose, but he knows it would’ve never mattered to me if I didn’t have her to read it. I did it to show her that ANYTHING is possible, that I was out there somewhere in a realm colored so bright blue, that its impossible to misconstrue. I went to hell and back just to be with her; to be next to her, to hold her, to move her, to set her free; from herself. I never cared to be the worlds chosen Angel, all I ever wanted was for her to choose me. To love me, to see me, to believe. So, if we’re being honest, my purpose had many positions. The main one being to show her what unconditional love truly looks like. How far I would go to prove my love, even after finding out I never had to. A real soul connection defies the limits placed upon a plain full of binding contracts. It defies gravity. It outlasts the test of time, it pulls and tugs on your heart from worlds unseen, it’s a feeling that never goes away. I could understand why others would envy that, but it is not my fault that that’s where we come from, that that’s what we have together. But it is my responsibility to honor that, to fight for it, to reach for the stars in a sky that could never hold us.

I did all of this for love, because it’s the ONLY thing that can save us all. Look what REAL love can do, look what it helped me build; a better world, the best version of me; a purpose of pain in BECOMING. So I do not care what anyone says about me, what tales they tell; I know who I am. I know what’s inside of me, and that will always be-- just a little kid looking for a love that lasts forever. One that never fades, that lives on even after this life. A boy searching for a girl he found in his dreams. That he can’t seem to get out of his head; that left a permanent mark on my memories. Wherever you are out there; I love you more than you could ever imagine. I love you so much I wrote you a book to show you that I never wanted to live in a world without you in it; so I created my own.

-ISAC

RBW,

This was always all for you... To claim what is mine, to claim my divine union with you, to claim my divine counterpart in you. To set in motion the calling over our lives God has destined for us. You know I’m in love with you, you know I would do anything for you. This is our path way I paved for just us. I cleared the way so you could make the conscious choice God has always been calling you forward to choose. You inspire me in ways you wouldn’t even believe. I have so much I’ve created & built that I want to show you, that I want to share with you that no ones ever seen; you have been my muse in all of it. And this is a specific chapter in this book that will always be just for you. I wanted to keepsake something special, between you & I. Everything I’ve told you, everything I’ve done was to show you that there’s someone out there just like you, that is in love with every part of you. That sees you for ALL that you are. That never needed anything from you, never wanted anything other than your love, and for you to be proud of me, for you to fight for US. That wants to build a life with you, conceive a family of baby angels with you, & anchor in Gods Kingdom with you by my side. I only ever wanted to give you a safe place to go to. I only ever wanted to uplift your life, your light, your spirit. What I see in you goes so far beyond the world others try an convince you is reality. I’m yours because I chose to be, I chose to leave everything behind in order to align with you, to find my way back to you. You wanted clarity, you wanted my truth-- Here it is; I want EVERYTHING with you, I want you to want the same with me, I don’t want to share you, I want you to have MY last name, I want to show you a love that only exists where we come from. Don’t even entertain others when they try an make you believe you and I aren’t different, that we’re just like everyone else. That couldn’t be further from the truth. The truth is I’ve been committed to my purpose this entire time, with my head down working hand and hand with Father. I’ve honored you, I’ve devoted myself to our bond. I remained celibate & saved myself for just you. I remained dedicated, to proving to you that I only ever saw you; that no one can take your place in my heart or in my head. And if I’m considered stupid or naive for that, then so be it; I came to prove a point, to prove myself, to prove what real loyalty looks like even when I was shrouded in darkness. I think if you believe in a lighthearted dream long enough.. it’s bound to manifest. You are my dream, and my wish upon a shooting star was to make all of this with you.. come true.

I’M SO IN LOVE WITH YOU,

Your True Empress 👑, Your True Twin Soul 👥, Your True Divine Counterpart ☥

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