Edge of Desire
The grand finale to the secrets of my soul, the depths I was willing to go to unveil what lies beneath. I put my whole heart into this, my entire spirit and energy into uncovering what true divinity looks like. I’ve been through more than any other human has ever endured, through as many lifetimes as I’ve come to this planet. I’ve been broken down, battered, beaten, sacrificed, crucified, burnt, lied on so many times I can’t even count anymore. The cruelty I’ve had to overcome I wouldn’t wish on my own enemy, in fact even after it all I wouldn’t even say I have any enemies. I don’t consider anyone to be an enemy, I consider everything a lesson, a blessing, an opportunity to see the beauty behind the sadness, behind the heartbreak, behind the brokenness of the human heart. I see through the wounds of others to understand why others react, and act in the ways they do. I open myself up to feeling the pain of others so I can better understand myself. This entire journey through beginning to end has been a learning experience I don’t think any mortal mind could conceive, nor would I even want them to have to. Father has given me this right of passage because he equipped me to be the one to hold it. Some days I feel it’s not fair, some days I have to ask Him why all of this pain and heartache just to understand Him better. Immortality is a gift and a curse, it can be unbearable at times, it crawls inside my skin with how much it annoys me. It doesn’t seem like there’s a purpose other than seeing the blinding truth of how hard it is to truly love. The Book of Life is The Book of Love. They are one in the same, because on this plain love looks differently than it does back home. I search for home everywhere I go here, the only thing that has ever made me feel the closest to it was you. I don’t know why this had to be so hard, I don’t know why this all even happened. I never imagined where this road would take me. I never imagined having to do it all alone. I waited, I saved this last book for us. I held off as long as I could in hopes you’d finally choose me to build this with me, to help me write this. I wanted it to be a two part series of both sides. I prayed for you, I manifested you, I yearned for you everyday. I never left, I never chose anyone over you, I never left you for another. I never walked away to pursue anything other than to feel fully the emptiness you made felt by not choosing me. This connection has brought out every fear, every wound, every dark part of me that I refused to bring to the surface. It triggered me into pain I’ve never felt, it weighed on my heart and soul like a thousand boulders all rolling over me as I lied awake feeling it all, I couldn’t numb it, I didn’t want to. I knew that if I was ever going to become the highest version of myself that I had to face it head on. That I had to understand it, study it, investigate it like a puzzle. I am the greatest psychic investigator to ever touch earth, I’ve done it multiple lifetimes, I remembered how to again this one. One thing I could never understand in every lifetime though was you. I could never understand why you made the decisions you did, why you could never see me for who I truly am, why you could never see this connection for how special it has always been. How you never understood that this never comes around again, that I never come around again, that I can never be replaced, that the love I have for you could ever be replicated. The heart I handed over to you in the palm of my hand that no one else holds. How incredible it is to have something as intimate as this is without even holding each other in real life. I wish you could see it how I do. I wish you could understand how truly valuable I am. Not because of what I have, or where I come from, but because of who I am underneath all of this. My spirit, my soul, my heart. I am who you see in your dreams, I am my higher self integrated into this 3d realm. I’ve had so many dreams of you, holding you, loving you, playing and running around as little kids. You bring out the child in me, you bring out the best in me. You make me feel like home isn’t too far away. You have always been my home because you are me. This lifetime I figured it all out, my last lifetime I’ll ever come back here. The last time I will ever be in human form. The reason I’m able to love you so unconditionally is because I learned each lifetime how to unlock truly loving myself. I did it all within a year, do you know how difficult that is, do you know how much work I’ve put in to this craft, do you know how much pain I’ve endured? Can you even imagine how many tears I’ve shed for you. You wondered if I was cold, and calculated. If I did all of this for ulterior motives, if I had hidden agendas beneath the surface with you. The answer has always been HELL NO. I’ve never loved anyone or anything as much as I love you, not because I’m obsessed with you, not because I needed you, not because I wanted anything from you. I love you this much because I learned to love myself. In doing so I’m able to love my other half. You see you were never going to see my true value, you were never going to love me the way I deserved without loving yourself completely first. The reason we’re in this mess is because you’ve been so consumed with a world that will never love you back. A world that you don’t even belong in, a world that’s sole purpose is to hinder your growth, to hold you back, to blind you to the truth. All of this has been for you to see the true blueprint to a world that deceives, that needed to be burnt to ash. That is the whole purpose of my return. I was sent to destroy it, and to rebuild a new one. Every where I go I obliterate faulty foundations, just so I can create a better one. Can’t you see yet that I’m the cornerstone. Father sent me so I could co create a better world for all of us. To anchor in Home to a place that is broken beyond repair. I never cared about money, I never cared about power, or influence, or fame. I cared about building a playground that you and I could play together again in. It’s all I’ve ever cared about. It’s all that I sacrificed everything for. I wake up everyday with the motivation, determination, the heart of a thousand lions not to roar for all to hear me, but to silently build what was never meant to be broken, our hearts, our spirits. To inspire you, to prove to you that anything is possible, to show you that you can manifest miracles with just prayers. I never used any type of magic, I would never do that, I don’t need to. I am magic. I am the living, breathing, embodiment of Father. He lives through me, why in the world would I need to use any type of magic? I am the co creator in hybrid form. I’m everything you ever dreamed of, everything you ever prayed for, everything you ever wished for. You just weren’t ready to hold it. I will never hate you for that. I will never hold anything against you. That’s not what true love is. What it truly is-- is loving someone so much that is pains you to see them walk away and still wish them nothing but happiness and bliss. It’s doing everything you possibly can with what you have to prove to them that you see them, you see every part of them, the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful. Accepting them for all that they are and telling them “hey, I know you may not see it but you are the most beautiful soul I’ve ever seen”. I didn’t fall in love with the version of you that walks, I fell in love with the version of you that flies. I fell in love with the purest form of you that exists in a dimension only the most righteous reach. I fell in love with your spirit, with your higher self. The one that lives beyond this world, the one that I hope to hold for the rest of eternity. What scares me most is never seeing that version of you ever again. If I can’t have you in this life, in the psyhsical form I at least need you in the spirit. What I’ve learned is that I can’t have that version of you if you don’t choose me here. If you don’t fulfill our souls contract here then we can’t be together after this. At least that’s what I feel. The person I spend eternity with is the person who chooses me for my last lifetime. This is my last life, this is our last chance. It’s why God gave us this opportunity one last time. I had to go to hell in order to bring you back, to offer you another path, to show you the way. There’s no one else I would rather have by my side. There is no one else I’d rather spend an eternity with. But that is not up to me anymore. I would never jeopardize your free will, I would never manipulate it, I would never try an sway you either way. All I can do is tell you the truth, explain in detail how deep my love for you goes. Offer you my heart, my hand in oblivion, in heaven. Show you just how special my love is, how willing I am to go the depths of my soul, to endure all this pain and heartbreak just to show you what true love really looks like. I never wanted to leave you behind, I never wanted to walk away from you. But I can’t stay in the space you’re in now, I can’t be with you unless you’re in your north node. I can’t be around the demons you have surrounded yourself with. God won’t allow it, it’s why he hasn’t allowed us to come together. Not because I’m not willing to save you, but because he won’t allow me to. He needs you to save yourself, to come back to Him, to depend on Him. To leave it all behind in order to choose Him over this world and anything in it. The only reason I am who I am today is because I did just that. I chose Him over anything and anyone and it led me back home to you. It allowed me to love you the way you deserved to be loved. It showed me the other half of myself. It broadened my understanding of how hard it is to love someone who can’t even see themselves for how amazing they truly are. You have been so lost that you can’t even see how infinite you are, how expansive you can become. How nothing of this world here on earth even matters. I want to believe in this version of you so bad, I want to hold out hope, I want to keep the faith in you to ascend and rise with me. To reintegrate who you truly are. To not let anyone’s opinions or restrictions get to you or get in the way. They don’t know you like I do, they can’t see you like I do. They don’t love you like I do. I’m here for you to be all you can be, to become your ultimate version of yourself, to be your most authentic self no matter what anyone says. The way I feel with your higher self helps unlock the most genuine version of who I truly am, it helps me to become ME. I never wanted to do any of this without you, but I will if I have to. I have no other choice. I will be going home regardless because I chose to reintegrate, to rise, I chose divinity over everything else. Over anything in this world. Because of that I have secured my throne, I have a one way ticket back to paradise because of it. The last thing I ever want is to not see you there when I return. In fact if there’s one thing I truly NEED it’s to see you there again. It’s to be with you there. It’s to hold your spirit, to see your beautiful indigo blue body of light that glimmers brighter than the waters of the ocean on a sunny day. I don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t see you there. I think my soul would scream out in pain for eternity. It’s my greatest fear, it’s why I never give up on you, it’s why I never waver in my determination to get you to see the light within you no matter how much darkness has plagued you for far too long. I’m here to bring you back home, to bring you back to me, to bring you back to Father. We love you, we always have, we always will. But you have to choose us of your own free will, we won’t force you, we won’t manipulate you with love spells (you’re not slick btw). I will simply hold the door open for you in hopes that you will walk beside me and reign in heaven with me like we were always destined to. As above, so below. You love this world so much, you want to rule over it so badly then you have to choose light, you have to choose me. Because I have dominion over it, with or without you; not the other way around. Father made it that way for a reason (you know why). He’s tired of your disobedience, and honestly so am I. Choose yourself, choose to put in the work, choose to leave behind all those who are not serving your highest good, or continue to fall further. You were not meant to be a fallen angel, I didn’t go to hell to get you back for you to just choose to return there. This is all so much deeper than you understand, than anyone around you convinces you to understand. They’re fools, they don’t understand a fraction of what eternity looks like. They’ve never been there, and they certainly aren’t going there now. They’ve solidified their fates, they’ve chosen their side. They will return to exactly where they came from. So will I, you can either come with me back home, or follow them back to darkness. Please don’t make me leave you behind, I don’t want to. I want you with me, holding my hand, sitting on the thrones God made specifically for us. I love you, I will always love you, I am not just your Angel, I am you. CHOOSE YOURSELF. You’re on the edge, what do you desire? This old world without me, or the new earth by my side? Your free will, your choice.
Edge of Desire
The grand finale to the secrets of my soul, the depths I was willing to go to unveil what lies beneath. I put my whole heart into this, my entire spirit and energy into uncovering what true divinity looks like. I’ve been through more than any other human has ever endured, through as many lifetimes as I’ve come to this planet. I’ve been broken down, battered, beaten, sacrificed, crucified, burnt, lied on so many times I can’t even count anymore. The cruelty I’ve had to overcome I wouldn’t wish on my own enemy, in fact even after it all I wouldn’t even say I have any enemies. I don’t consider anyone to be an enemy, I consider everything a lesson, a blessing, an opportunity to see the beauty behind the sadness, behind the heartbreak, behind the brokenness of the human heart. I see through the wounds of others to understand why others react, and act in the ways they do. I open myself up to feeling the pain of others so I can better understand myself. This entire journey through beginning to end has been a learning experience I don’t think any mortal mind could conceive, nor would I even want them to have to. Father has given me this right of passage because he equipped me to be the one to hold it. Some days I feel it’s not fair, some days I have to ask Him why all of this pain and heartache just to understand Him better. Immortality is a gift and a curse, it can be unbearable at times, it crawls inside my skin with how much it annoys me. It doesn’t seem like there’s a purpose other than seeing the blinding truth of how hard it is to truly love. The Book of Life is The Book of Love. They are one and the same, because on this plain love looks differently than it does back home. I search for home everywhere I go here, the only thing that has ever made me feel the closest to it was you. I don’t know why this had to be so hard, I don’t know why this all even happened. I never imagined where this road would take me. I never imagined having to do it all alone. I waited, I saved this last book for us. I held off as long as I could in hopes you’d finally choose me to build this with me, to help me write this. I wanted it to be a two part series of both sides. I prayed for you, I manifested you, I yearned for you everyday. I never left, I never chose anyone over you, I never left you for another. I never walked away to pursue anything other than to feel fully the emptiness you made felt by not choosing me. This connection has brought out every fear, every wound, every dark part of me that I refused to bring to the surface. It triggered me into pain I’ve never felt, it weighed on my heart and soul like a thousand boulders all rolling over me as I lied awake feeling it all, I couldn’t numb it, I didn’t want to. I knew that if I was ever going to become the highest version of myself that I had to face it head on. That I had to understand it, study it, investigate it like a puzzle. I am the greatest psychic investigator to ever touch earth, I’ve done it multiple lifetimes, I remembered how to again this one. One thing I could never understand in every lifetime though was you. I could never understand why you made the decisions you did, why you could never see me for who I truly am, why you could never see this connection for how special it has always been. How you never understood that this never comes around again, that I never come around again, that I can never be replaced, that the love I have for you could ever be replicated. The heart I handed over to you in the palm of my hand that no one else holds. How incredible it is to have something as intimate as this is without even holding each other in real life. I wish you could see it how I do. I wish you could understand how truly valuable I am. Not because of what I have, or where I come from, but because of who I am underneath all of this. My spirit, my soul, my heart. I am who you see in your dreams, I am my higher self integrated into this 3d realm. I’ve had so many dreams of you, holding you, loving you, playing and running around as little kids. You bring out the child in me, you bring out the best in me. You make me feel like home isn’t too far away. You have always been my home because you are me. This lifetime I figured it all out, my last lifetime I’ll ever come back here. The last time I will ever be in human form. The reason I’m able to love you so unconditionally is because I learned each lifetime how to unlock truly loving myself. I did it all within a year, do you know how difficult that is, do you know how much work I’ve put in to this craft, do you know how much pain I’ve endured? Can you even imagine how many tears I’ve shed for you. You wondered if I was cold, and calculated. If I did all of this for ulterior motives, if I had hidden agendas beneath the surface with you. The answer has always been HELL NO. I’ve never loved anyone or anything as much as I love you, not because I’m obsessed with you, not because I needed you, not because I wanted anything from you. I love you this much because I learned to love myself. In doing so I’m able to love my other half. You see you were never going to see my true value, you were never going to love me the way I deserved without loving yourself completely first. The reason we’re in this mess is because you’ve been so consumed with a world that will never love you back. A world that you don’t even belong in, a world that’s sole purpose is to hinder your growth, to hold you back, to blind you to the truth. All of this has been for you to see the true blueprint to a world that deceives, that needed to be burnt to ash. That is the whole purpose of my return. I was sent to destroy it, and to rebuild a new one. Every where I go I obliterate faulty foundations, just so I can create a better one. Can’t you see yet that I’m the cornerstone. Father sent me so I could co create a better world for all of us. To anchor in Home to a place that is broken beyond repair. I never cared about money, I never cared about power, or influence, or fame. I cared about building a playground that you and I could play together again in. It’s all I’ve ever cared about. It’s all that I sacrificed everything for. I wake up everyday with the motivation, determination, the heart of a thousand lions not to roar for all to hear me, but to silently build what was never meant to be broken, our hearts, our spirits. To inspire you, to prove to you that anything is possible, to show you that you can manifest miracles with just prayers. I never used any type of magic, I would never do that, I don’t need to. I am magic. I am the living, breathing, embodiment of Father. He lives through me, why in the world would I need to use any type of magic? I am the co creator in hybrid form. I’m everything you ever dreamed of, everything you ever prayed for, everything you ever wished for. You just weren’t ready to hold it. I will never hate you for that. I will never hold anything against you. That’s not what true love is. What it truly is-- is loving someone so much that is pains you to see them walk away and still wish them nothing but happiness and bliss. It’s doing everything you possibly can with what you have to prove to them that you see them, you see every part of them, the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful. Accepting them for all that they are and telling them “hey, I know you may not see it but you are the most beautiful soul I’ve ever seen”. I didn’t fall in love with the version of you that walks, I fell in love with the version of you that flies. I fell in love with the purest form of you that exists in a dimension only the most righteous reach. I fell in love with your spirit, with your higher self. The one that lives beyond this world, the one that I hope to hold for the rest of eternity. What scares me most is never seeing that version of you ever again. If I can’t have you in this life, in the physical form I at least need you in the spirit. What I’ve learned is that I can’t have that version of you if you don’t choose me here. If you don’t fulfill our souls contract here then we can’t be together after this. At least that’s what I feel. The person I spend eternity with is the person who chooses me for my last lifetime. This is my last life, this is our last chance. It’s why God gave us this opportunity one last time. I had to go to hell in order to bring you back, to offer you another path, to show you the way. There’s no one else I would rather have by my side. There is no one else I’d rather spend an eternity with. But that is not up to me anymore. I would never jeopardize your free will, I would never manipulate it, I would never try and sway you either way. All I can do is tell you the truth, explain in detail how deep my love for you goes. Offer you my heart, my hand in oblivion, in heaven. Show you just how special my love is, how willing I am to go the depths of my soul, to endure all this pain and heartbreak just to show you what true love really looks like. I never wanted to leave you behind, I never wanted to walk away from you. But I can’t stay in the space you’re in now, I can’t be with you unless you’re in your north node. I can’t be around the demons you have surrounded yourself with. God won’t allow it, it’s why he hasn’t allowed us to come together. Not because I’m not willing to save you, but because he won’t allow me to. He needs you to save yourself, to come back to Him, to depend on Him. To leave it all behind in order to choose Him over this world and anything in it. The only reason I am who I am today is because I did just that. I chose Him over anything and anyone and it led me back home to you. It allowed me to love you the way you deserved to be loved. It showed me the other half of myself. It broadened my understanding of how hard it is to love someone who can’t even see themselves for how amazing they truly are. You have been so lost that you can’t even see how infinite you are, how expansive you can become. How nothing of this world here on earth even matters. I want to believe in this version of you so bad, I want to hold out hope, I want to keep the faith in you to ascend and rise with me. To reintegrate who you truly are. To not let anyone’s opinions or restrictions get to you or get in the way. They don’t know you like I do, they can’t see you like I do. They don’t love you like I do. I’m here for you to be all you can be, to become your ultimate version of yourself, to be your most authentic self no matter what anyone says. The way I feel with your higher self helps unlock the most genuine version of who I truly am, it helps me to become ME. I never wanted to do any of this without you, but I will if I have to. I have no other choice. I will be going home regardless because I chose to reintegrate, to rise, I chose divinity over everything else. Over anything in this world. Because of that I have secured my throne, I have a one way ticket back to paradise because of it. The last thing I ever want is to not see you there when I return. In fact if there’s one thing I truly NEED it’s to see you there again. It’s to be with you there. It’s to hold your spirit, to see your beautiful indigo blue body of light that glimmers brighter than the waters in the ocean on a sunny day. I don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t see you there. I think my soul would scream out in pain for eternity. It’s my greatest fear, it’s why I never give up on you, it’s why I never waver in my determination to get you to see the light within you no matter how much darkness has plagued you for far too long. I’m here to bring you back home, to bring you back to me, to bring you back to Father. We love you, we always have, we always will. But you have to choose us of your own free will, we won’t force you, we won’t manipulate you with love spells (you’re not slick btw). I will simply hold the door open for you in hopes that you will walk beside me and reign in heaven with me like we were always destined to. As above, so below. You love this world so much, you want to rule over it so badly then you have to choose light, you have to choose me. Because I have dominion over it, with or without you; not the other way around. Father made it that way for a reason (you know why). He’s tired of your disobedience, and honestly so am I. Choose yourself, choose to put in the work, choose to leave behind all those who are not serving your highest good, or continue to fall further. You were not meant to be a fallen angel, I didn’t go to hell to get you back for you to just choose to return there. This is all so much deeper than you understand, then anyone around you convinces you to understand. They’re fools, they don’t understand a fraction of what eternity looks like. They’ve never been there, and they certainly aren’t going there now. They’ve solidified their fates, they’ve chosen their side. They will return to exactly where they came from. So will I, you can either come with me back home, or follow them back to darkness. Please don’t make me leave you behind, I don’t want to. I want you with me, holding my hand, sitting on the thrones God made specifically for us. I love you, I will always love you, I am not just your Angel, I am you. CHOOSE YOURSELF. You’re on the edge, what do you desire? This old world without me, or the new earth at my side? Your free will, your choice.
Bonus
Sacrificial Lamb
The bitter truth behind my mask that I wear to hide the tears I’ve wept in my quiet place. In the darkness that I was left in is that going through all of this alone has been the most heartbreaking, lonely, impossible endeavor I’ve ever ever endured. It’s awakening, after awakening, ego death, after ego death. You all look at me like I’m some arrogant ass, like I’m full of myself, like I think of myself as this high and mighty alien that puts himself on some kind of invisible pedestal. The real truth is that I’ve been humbled so many times I have truly lost count. The amount of tears that have rolled off my cheeks has got to be in thousands by now. If you all could only see me for who I truly am, for how I truly feel, for what it feels like to do all this by myself with no help, with no one by my side, no one to talk to, no one to confide in, no one who could ever understand hurts me more than I let on. You don’t think I wish I could be normal? You don’t think I want a normal relationship? You don’t think I want to be married, have babies, have a normal life at times? You’d be gravely mistaken if you think this path is easy. If you think I don’t question everything, if you think I don’t get upset that this had to be my path. I never asked for any of this, I never deserved any of this. But I was called for something greater, I was called to sacrifice everything, I was called to get on my knees and pray for healing, pray for motivation, pray for strength, pray for courage, pray for EVERYTHING. Most people think I’m some sort of wizard magician or spell caster or some weird shit along those lines. The real truth is that I’ve never done any sort of magic a day in my life. I refuse to do any of that, I refuse to resort to anything but prayer. I put all my hope, my faith, my trust in my Father. He has been the only one with me, so I guess when it’s all said and done I’ve never been alone this entire time. He has sheltered me through everything. He has been my refuge that I turn to when all of this seems too heavy to bare. I have come so far in this journey because of Him, because of my devotion for Him. My relationship with Him has been the only thing I’ve had to hold onto. Everything else, everyone else has abandoned me. Cracking open the wound that took everything in me to heal. When I lost the two women I’ve loved more than life itself it tore open a part of me that felt like a never ending cycle of burden, of hopelessness, of turmoil. It brought me to my knees begging and sobbing for the pain to end. Since I lost them I have felt empty, I’ve felt like I lost the only ladies that could see my inner pain, could see me. So I turned to God, I had no where else to go, I had nothing else, no one else to lean on. He saved me, from the world, from myself, from everything put in my path to break me down, to break my heart. Lovers paid to destroy me, to bring heartbreak, and unworthiness into my world simply because their love for money and themselves was more important than loving me. Then being there for me when I needed them the most. I’ve had no one to depend on, and maybe God intended it to be that way. So I had no one else to turn to, so that is was only Him and I. In doing so he knew he could build me up, he could show me my true strength, he could show me that all I ever needed was Him. He was right. I thank Him everyday for helping me out of the pits of hell I was lost in. The depths of hell that I had to crawl out of to fulfill His will over my life, not my own. I chose to serve, I chose to devote myself to whatever he was asking me. He showed me that I was always His favorite, that this was my destiny, that I am His SON. All of this was for a greater purpose than just my own life. It was to lay the groundwork for others to believe again, to show them that there is ALWAYS another way. The path less traveled is the path of choosing Him over the world. To leave the world behind, to leave everyone behind, to leave my old self behind. To integrate my higher self. I believe I’m once again the first person on earth to do so. I am once again in this lifetime the miracle child. He knew I’d wake up eventually, he knew all I needed was to be alone, to rely on only myself. No one came to save me, no one came to my aid, no one came to support me, no one showed any interest in whether I lived or died. I was thrown to the wolves, and I’m not holding that over anyone. Instead, my heart has opened up wider, I have forgiven everyone who saw me suffering and chose to look the other way, or join in on the fun of laughing at me. The whole time I was crying, battling demons, overcoming all the odds. A story written in the stars, A man on a mission, an angel walking the world alone. To say I don’t have the right to be proud, to speak up, to hold myself in high esteem would be blasphemy. I deserve the whole world, I deserve true unconditional love, I deserve a family of my own. So that’s exactly what Father is going to give me, regardless if the whole world tried to burnt hose dreams to the ground. I picked up the pieces buried in ash and rebuilt them over and over, and over again. I’ll continue to do so as many times as it takes because I refuse to let this world break me. I became unbreakable because of my faith, because of my heart. Because I refuse to give up, to sellout, to curl up in a ball and yield. Instead I rise. As all the angels in the heavens above lift me up into the clouds. Eyes beat red from the tears wept, sword of tongue on fire for justice and righteousness. Can’t you all see yet who I really am. I have been the revelations to Fathers biggest plans he has saved for just a time as this. Once I woke up my brother started his rebellion with as many as he could gather to come against me. He knew he’d never win, he knew I’d never give in, he knew no matter how many people he could use against me that I loved that I would still outlast them all. I am the resurrected son. I am 33 years old, I am ISAC the first sacrificial LAMB set on high. I am the chosen right hand of God hidden from the world until the time was just right. Just because I’m not what you expected, not who you thought I was, not what your preachers, and religions told you I’d look like doesn’t mean I’m not exactly who God created me to be. I had to love myself, to see what I was truly capable of, to see how powerful God truly made me, to see the refinement through the fire. To see that no matter what anyone said about me, no matter how many false rumors spread, no matter how many lied told on my name I would still overcome it all. I would still love you all, I would still forgive you all, that doesn’t men I didn’t roar at the top of my lungs in rage at all of it but that I would fall back into who my heart space eventually, to fall back on who I know I am no matter what anyone says. My heart will always outlast the pain, I will always endure the pain, I will always choose love over hate. It’s what has always made me special. Betraying me may hurt me for a time, but it will haunt all of you for a lifetime. It hurts you more than me, because to hurt an innocent and loving individual who only came here to help you ascend says more about all of you than it does me. I want you all to learn from this, to grow, to FEEL. This world has lost their heart, has lost their faith, has lost their hope. I’m here to bring it back, to prove to everyone that even through the most impossible life path true divinity can be achieved, dreams and miracles can be manifested even when everyone does everything they can to stand against them. God has redeemed me, he has lifted me higher. I am the new way, the truth, the life that you all have been searching for your whole lives. I have been made new in His image and I only want to teach you all that you can be too. I love you not for my own pride, but for your free will choice to choose what I did too. To prove to you, that everything with our Creator is possible no matter how many people laugh at you, mock you, try and tell you you’re crazy, try and stop you, try and make you believe you can’t do. it; YOU CAN. I’m the living proof; The Sacrificial Lamb.
Risen On The Third
This journey has been the ride of my life. I was never writing any of this for recognition, for views, for likes, for money, for anything other than to fully heal myself. To heal anyone who had the eyes to see, the ears to hear, the courage to speak up. I write to release, to fulfill my soul, to show the world the real me. This go around I get to write my own story. This lifetime I get to represent myself; my higher self. The version of me that’s been hidden from the world for centuries. I lay it all out there to be judged, to be mocked, to be laughed at, to be truly seen. I’ve come so far now that the opinions of others don’t bother me, the only thing I worry about is how Father sees me, how you see me. I write to show the world how much of a hopeless romantic I am. To show you how much love I hold in my heart for you, the way I see you; you wouldn’t even believe. I see your higher self, I see the version of you that is full of light, that is made perfect in His image; The other half of me. I don’t know where you are, I don’t know what you’re doing, I don’t know who you’re with. I’ve tried over and over again and all it does is confuse me. I stopped trying to use my gifts because maybe with you I’m not supposed to. Maybe I’m just meant to speak what lies within me, what I feel, regardless of what I see. This Book of Life is for everyone, but to be honest it has been all for you since I saw you in my dreams. I saw home when I saw you, I saw something other worldly, someone that made me believe in true love again. My intentions with you were always of the purest light, they were always of real love that transcends the world others live in. At times I feel like I don’t even live in the same world as them, like I’m operating in a different dimension entirely. The way I love you can never be represented in enough detail of words-- the way I see through you. I don’t know if your' doing love spells on me or if your' higher self is laying right next to me in spirit whispering in my ear to air it all out. Some mornings I wake up and I feel your spirit there with me, laying on my chest, I’ve even seen you with my eyes half closed, hazy from sleep deprivation. I sit up at night crying to songs that I know you’d love, lyrics I know you’re speaking to me through. The gifts we have, the soul tie that bonds our higher selves together is something I will never get over. It lingers in the depths of my every thoughts, it haunts my every move. I see eternity with you, I see forevermore by your side. What’s so crazy is on the other side you’re such a chatter box, and I’m the quiet and shy one. Like on this plain we’re the exact opposite of our true selves. The trials we’ve endured here, the tribulations of others trying to tear us apart, to come between us, to toy with our gifts to cause confusion of who we are to each other. I’ve never had to endure something so challenging in my life. My story is a miracle, it’s something that will be told for generations to come. People wonder how I overcame everything, how I’m still standing, how I’m still alive. But what they never knew was; that was the easy part. That part of this story was a breeze compared to not having you beside me through it all. How I couldn’t wait to fall asleep just to see your face again, to hold your light body in my arms. I hope you know I search for you everywhere, like one day God will lead me right to you, like you’ll appear out of the blue when I turn around. Looking into your eyes I saw the entire Universe. I saw what divinity looked like in a single soul. The nights we spent on the phone in the past, the days of online bible study with Knowles where I got on just to see your face, just to see you smile, just to know you were there with me meant everything. I wrote you songs, I made art for you, I made you my ultimate muse. You motivated me, you inspired me, you made me feel invincible. I would single you out in a crowed room full of people, I would feel you before I even saw you. I’ve never loved anyone or anything the way I love you. This has always been all for you. Whether or not I ever see you again I hold onto the memories of your beautiful smile that could light up an entire colosseum. You were the Angel who showed up just in time to help save me from drowning when I had no one, when I had nothing, when everything was taken from me. I don’t know who you are anymore in this life unfortunately, but I know who you are in the spirit and that soul lights my entire world on fire. A love like this brings me to my knees, it proves Gods love. It makes me fear nothing, I don’t ever fear death because I know if you’re on the other side waiting for me then I’ll never need the world I left behind. I don’t know where you came from, I don’t know where you’re going, but I know that regardless I will always love you; unconditionally. Gods love lives in me, it works through me, he made me to love you so much that it kills me. It scares the absolute shit out of me, it scares me to wonder if I’ll ever see you again in this life. I pray everyday for Him to bring us together, I pray for you every morning, and every night. I’ve held onto the feeling of what it feels like to fall asleep next to you, what it felt like to wake up to you, to brush our teeth next to one another, to make dinner together, to race on the freeway going one hundred in a thirty five. You make me feel alive, you bring life to my world. Loving you has made me feel every emotion I could ever grasp. I’ve tried to process this entire connection with you, how none of it makes sense, how much it pains me to walk alone without holding your hand. But one thing remains true through it all-- I would never trade it for the world. I would never turn back time to not go through it. It has evolved me to a level that is unreachable, it has unlocked every part of me that I hid from the world. It strengthened me even in my weakest moments. I threw away my pride, I let go of my ego, I cried my eyes out so many times just trying to understand your heart. To understand what you were going through, what you have been through. I am selfless in the way I love, that is one thing that will never change about me. You can ask anyone who’s actually willing to speak truth on my name, that actually knows me-- that I’ve always been this way. I won’t change that no matter how many people try and break me down, no matter how much the world tries to break my spirit. I’m unbreakable because of my heart. God made me this way because he trusted that I’d be the one to save the world again. Here I am, heart ripped wide open, vulnerable, ready and willing to be destroyed by the one person with the power to crumble my entire world. If you want to hurt me, if you want to humble me, if you want to decimate me then do it slow, make me feel it, make it burn. Light me on fire because I don’t care anymore, I don’t care to show you all of me, I don’t care to show the world just how far I’m willing to go to save you, to show you all of me regardless of the outcome; maybe that’s my purpose. To be the most real, authentic, genuine version of myself for the world to see how much I bleed for you. To know that no matter what happens I can truly say I left it all on the table, I showed the world the real me. I gave everything to love the one person who takes me home. Who I envision going half on a baby with. The love of my life that I would do anything for, that I would've sacrificed everything but myself for. I’m not here to hurt you, I never was. I was sent here to show you what real love looks like. To prove to you who I really am no matter how many people lie about me. This is me, all of me; a lover boy. I’m the softest, gentle giant that feels everything; A super empath. One that has boundaries, that requires devotion, that holds his heart in the palm of his hand. Unafraid to look stupid, unafraid to lay it on heavy. This is what true strength looks like, this is what courage truly is. I’m here to show the world what LOVE has always been about. It’s sacrifice, its gut wrenching, it’s peace from within. I end this Book of Love speaking my story and letting the chips fall where they may. Because regardless of what they say about me, I know who I am, I know what I feel, I know how to love. I’m everything the world has been lacking, I’m the blueprint to the new earth and what it means to be real. If I never see you again, just know no one will ever love you the way I did. No one will ever be me, and I will see you again on the other side. I will be your light at the end of every tunnel, I will always be your Angel. That’s what I’ve always been; an Angel in the flesh walking a distant place that I never fit into. I don’t care to fit in, I will always be unapologetically ME. The world can say whatever they want; what they can’t say is that I didn’t lay all the rumors to rest. I’m someone who left the world behind to heal myself, to heal the world, to heal you. That was my mission and I hope you see now how much it meant to me, how much you will always mean to me. I love you for eternity, I love you because I love myself; it’s easy to love my other half no matter what. You were the best thing to ever randomly come into my life; even if it was just in my dreams. You are the girl of my dreams; literally.
Loss Beyond Measure
They say losing ones self is the ultimate sacrifice, parts of who you once were, pieces of your soul that fractured into tiny fragments. Dismantling the inner knowing of who you thought you were, who the world sees you as, who your family knew you to be, who you portrayed yourself in the mirror of illusion, in being. Who were you ever really? A lost soul searching for purpose in the places that only made you wear a mask, or a leader of your own world? Did you push the boundaries of what others thought or said in their opinions of who you are, without even holding the knowledge of who they claim to be. Did you learn to dive within the parts of you that were kept hidden from the outside world, your own book of secrets too scared to open. Hiding from the world that was never going to accept you anyways. So why be anything other than what lies further beneath? Why listen to anything, anyone, other than your own heart? Do you even have one? Do you feel, do you hurt, do you sense, do you burn, do you know what real truth truly is? All I’ve seen since returning is the cowering of individuals who are too scared to be an individual. Followers, people who roam like sheep behind the latest gossip and lie. Too afraid to take a stand, to stand on their own, to stand up, to lead, to be different, to go their own way, to lead their own life. They placate to the demands of others to not be singled out, embarrassed. Not looked at as against the grain, they’re fearful of being unique. Fearful of being alone, fearful of walking away, fearful of faith, fearful of believing in anything other than what they can only see right in front of them. They don’t believe in miracles until you show them, and even when they see them in front of their face they still sit in denial. Because they have no belief in themselves. They hide behind their many masks of delusion to self sedate the distortion of their own insecurities, projecting onto the innocent their own wounds that hold them back from ever realizing they're trapped in the maze they created within their own mind. A psychosis of self sabotage, a self sacrifice, the refusal to investigate the real problem they’re too afraid to face. Most don’t have the ability to break patterns & cycles, they’re too comfortable playing victim in their own misery they chose for their life. Instead of finding the source of their depression, they push away Gods blessings, that he hands them on a silver platter. They settle for the disease of dissatisfaction, rather than seeking to disillusion themselves, they search for preservation in self validation, letting others stroke their insecure ego, allowing pride to run their life. They don’t have what it takes to sit with themselves and just cry, just release, just let go, just surrender into the inner knowing that they don’t have all the answers. They’d rather play pretend in acting like they’ve got it all figured it out, like they could never be wrong, when all along they were giving away their own power to smoke & mirrors. Playing along in a game, unaware of the consequences of the ending. Arrogant and ignorant of the outcome in what it meant to be on the side that loses not just everything, but themselves. Their own soul, the parts of them they came back here to retrieve. A game in a system rigged to go in the favor of the ones who play with “power”. But what’s it all worth to gain the whole world in power, if you end up losing your soul. If you end up being wrong, if you end up gambling the very thing sent here to save you. What’s your soul worth to you? Is it worth the fame and fortune, the riches of worldly pleasures and power. Or is it all just a temporary high, setting you up for a greater fall from grace? A loss beyond measure to get back what was never meant to be bargained, never meant to be signed away. Most who refuse to believe are the very ones who convince you they believe the most. All the while in their deep inner thoughts they don’t even believe in their own heart, their own mind, their own success, their own self worth. They need handouts, groups, resources, organizations, societies, the system, to get anywhere, to gain. In my world I never needed any of that. All I needed was me. I figured out through deeper healing that I could gather up and reintegrate those missing pieces I’d been searching for. That God laid dormant within me this entire time, deep down in the shadows of my own darkness that I finally grew up to not be scared of anymore. To dive head first into the depths of my own hell. I fell further into the emptiness that I felt like others needed to fill, and realized I could fulfill my own cup, I could hold my own heart, I could rise even when others bet against me, even when everyone gave up on me and left me for dead. I never gave up because I knew their was something greater inside of me that I hadn’t reached deep enough into yet to feel. So I sucked out the poison of every snake bite from everyone I ever thought loved me, venom leaking through my veins from betrayals for no reason. For being innocent, and doing nothing but minding my own business, living my own life a different way, away from everyone who abused me. Apparently that made me the villain, that made me the monster. When God told me that the world would once again hate me, man he surely wasn’t lying. You all hated me for literally no reason, you believed in lies, in falsehoods, in narratives spun to benefit abusers and criminals. What does that say about your souls? Doesn’t that make you abusers as well? Guilty by your own association with the side you chose. You chose to believe frauds, false prophets, instead of believing in the one person you’d been praying for to return all your life. You gave up eternity, divinity, for a few dollars? For a years worth of leisure and pleasure? How foolish could you be? How retarded, as the ones who claim to have it all figured out, who claim to be the smartest in the room, who play checkers casting the illusion that its chess-- you sure don’t know shit. All I want to say is that when you don’t even care about yourself; you surely aren’t going to care about me. Care about playing your own game by the rules. I play by all the REAL rules, you know the rules of the Universe. The only ones that actually matter, I know you have a hard time accepting the real TRUTH, but hey you can lead a horse to water, can’t force it to drink. I’ve warned everyone enough, I’ve given you the play by play, I’ve given you the playbook, I am the blueprint. I made all the right moves; simply by being sweet, caring, kind, LOVING. You’re able to do that when you’ve truly healed, when you’ve used up all your isolated time forced upon you to take a deeper look at what’s going on. What’s most important, what reality really is. You thought mine was diluted by the mind manipulation magic you hid in, from your own shadows, your' fake ass masks you hide behind. Think again. Loss after loss for the ones unhealed projecting their own burdens onto others. On groups coming together to face one Angel. You have all shown me first hand just how powerful I truly am. Gas lighting me, and everyone else that the towers falling in your lives aren’t really there. Burning to the ground while I continue to build Gods Kingdom without the help of anyone. It really took the entire matrix to try and defeat one So(u)n. Look at that, Gods promised power & glory all to shed light on the TRUTH. I don’t know how many times I have to say it to get through those thick skulls you all fumble around carrying. Those big ass heads full of ego, full of arrogance, full of believing in your world of connections. To wage a war against a being who doesn’t even live in your world, who isn’t even from your world. Who doesn’t need your connections, your resources, your allies, your lies, your games. I simply built my own from the loss of yours. Father & I are undefeated in the art of war, a war you all started, a war we ended. You see when you simply refuse to live and BE like everyone else you can escape the false fog others live in. You can clear the smoke and see beyond any loss, and realize everything is working out exactly as God planned for it too. That’s what true surrender is, the will to not be moved in your belief that he is working it all out to favor the one destined for FAVOR. FOR REDEMPTION. FOR DELIVERANCE. FOR LEGACY. FOR THE RISE OF ALL THE LIFETIMES LIVED BEFORE. See how this loss ends, with a WIN bigger than beyond, infinite possibilities to further change EVERYTHING. I already changed the world with my story, with my strength, with my “losses”, and transmuted it, alchemized it all into the biggest win ever produced. Should’ve never counted out Gods most precious diamond, born from the pressure of purified fire. Came out flawless in His eyes, and that’s all that will ever matter to me. His LOVE, His WIN, His TESTIMONY, His STORY. Not the story the world warped, to brainwash the masses of the illusion of who Him & I really are, who we’ve always been. That’s why this go around I write my own story, His story; so you can’t distort it or “translate” it the way you want to make people believe they’ll never amount to this level. That they can’t relate to a “perfect” man. That he’ll forgive all of your sins you refuse to repent in change, to change your own lives moving forward. That’s not how this has ever worked. It was a sacrifice you forced upon an innocent to bleed for your own mistakes, for your own fears. Instead God used it to write the prelude of TRUTH, to show you life after death. To show you what real glory is beyond this world, to show you there’s a different path(WAY) you can take to reach the realms of Heaven. Because if you believe you can leave here and enter those gates through bringing upon suffering to those who mean you no harm, then you are truly lost. There’s levels to this, I’ve been teaching you this entire time how to ascend those stairways. You didn’t want to listen. Truth is love, but it also hurts.
Always A Reason
There’s always a season, there’s always a reason to everything God has prepared for my life. Trial after trial, denial after denial. I can’t even begin to express the heartbreak I’ve endured in just this past year alone. Let alone my entire life, every life I’ve come back here. I think a bigger reason to all of this has been to figure out the secrets that make us so broken, that we keep coming back to this place to endure more suffering, more cruelty, more pain. I questioned it for so long why this world was the way it is. Why human beings can’t seem to hold onto their own hearts. Why they project their own suffering onto others, why they turn so cold and callous. I see the pain & suffering in others, I feel it from worlds away. I see the things that others refuse to face. I take accountability for the part I’ve played within my own psyche, pushing myself away from others, losing hope in humanity, losing trust in everyone. What I’ve been put through in this life, in every life, was designed to test my spirit. Was manufactured to break me, to get me to give up on myself. I was born into worlds of sin, into lives of karmic cycles, generational curses. I wasn’t given anything, instead everything was taken from me; my true identity, my life, my purpose, my path, my destiny. Everything meant to be completely wiped away for the sake of others greed. For the sake of their own wicked souls to thrive in a world that was never meant for them to even be a part of. You see when the word told us that our battle was not against flesh & blood-- it was giving us instructions that our own fights were never against anything other than ourselves. Yes, there may be outside influences, wickedness, evil spirits, principalities, “rulers” who never held any real power at all. But, none of that can ever truly hold any power over us if we simply make the conscious decision to-- not let it. To stop giving our power away to it, to others. Instead fight the final boss battle that matters more than any other war outside of us-- the battle within; with ourselves, with our own mind, our own thoughts, our own hearts. The war was always within, it was always bigger than anything outside of our control. You can’t control people, even when you try-- whether that’s with manipulation, illusion, lies, or that dark magic these retards play in. It will ALWAYS end up blowing up in your own face. The only thing you should be trying to control is your own emotions, your own passions, your own discipline, your own integrity, your own heart, your own mind, your own thoughts. You all question how I got this high in such a short amount of time-- it’s simple; I let go of control; I surrendered. I stopped caring about anything outside of myself. How others saw me, what others said about me, how others viewed me, how others betrayed me, how others perceived my image. I simply removed myself and let go of all of it. To fully heal, to see myself through my own eyes, to remember who I really am without anyone else who never knew me at all, to tell me who I was. I released it, no matter how much it hurt, no matter how badly I just wanted one person to see me for who I truly was, to see my heart for how big it has always been, to realize how real I’ve been in all of this, to walk this path of TRUTH with me. Unfortunately, no one was able to do that, no one was able to cut through the illusions of their own worlds to join me in mine. So I went at it alone, I took the initiative to walk this road, isolated and by myself like everyone wanted for me. What all of you failed to realize, that I knew all along; was that I was never alone. I had the backing of all of Heaven behind me, guiding me, fighting for me, pouring into me, setting me free. I had my faith, I held my hope, I believed when everyone outside of me called me crazy. I was given a strength that only one soul in the whole Universe holds-- the forgotten Son everyone idolized, prays to, has their own theories on. The saddest part is all of you think you know Him, that you’re close to Him, that you believe in Him, that you can call on Him to save you from all your sins you commit and think everything’s all good after. I think you all have been mind controlled, lost in your own realities of dementia to find an excuse to continue being the way you are. Doing the things you do, refusing to actually follow Gods will, and instead choose your own. You wouldn’t know the Son if he looked you right in the eyes and told you Himself that he’s the Son of God. If he showed you miracles that you’ve never seen before, if he opened His own heart to you, to show you mercy & grace. Instead, you’d spit in His face, you’d mock Him, you’d make fun of how different he is, you’d say he's a demon, that His MIRACLES are of the devil. You’d try to rile Him up, get Him to act out of character, get Him to “perform” for you & your city. You’d try and break Him down wound by wound, break His heart that he gave you freely just to make yourselves feel higher. You’d misrepresent Him to the world so that you could feel better about your own insecurities. You’d crucify Him for trying to help you heal, for speaking truth, for creating a new way forward. Sound familiar? History repeats itself. Cycle after cycle, rebirth after rebirth, reincarnation after reincarnation and nothings changed with humanity. Can you at least acknowledge why I’d start to lose my hope in it. After all this time you cling to your religions like they can save you, like you believe in something, in someone. You pray for a savior, you think you know a Messiah. But when God finally sends Him back to you; you do the same thing to Him again, that you did the first time. Just because he doesn’t look the way you expected, just because he doesn’t act like how you wanted Him to, just because he doesn’t follow your doctrines, just because he doesn’t fit your mold of lies you believed from the worlds outside influence; then he can’t truly be The Son. Did you ever think to go within, to open your own eye, to make your own decisions, to realize everything He’s shown you, everything He’s done, everything He is. That all I’ve ever done is speak TRUTH, is show you the real WAY back to Father, is give you the example of real righteousness with my own LIFE being put on display without my consent. I never asked for any of this, I never started this with the intentions of playing some character, of gaining attention or fame, hell I never even did this for any type of money. I did all of this because it’s what God called me to do. You don’t think I hesitated, that I worried how people would look at me, what they’d think of me, what they’d say about me? You didn’t think I was fearful at first for my life? You didn’t think I questioned how this would all end? I went through all of those stages, I spent countless nights alone in my bed, crying and praying that the path I took would eventually be seen for how difficult it really is. How much healing it truly takes, how courageous one has to be to walk it. How dark it can get before you ever see the light of a new day. This has been the walk through the valley of the shadow of death, this has taken so much shadow work, so much internal healing, so much faith, so much belief; in Father & most importantly myself. It’s easy to believe in my Abba YAH, he pours His love into me everyday, he protects me from all the outside forces that I can’t control. It’s even harder to continue believing in myself, when the proof of the outside world doesn’t show itself to me, when others hide my blessings, steal them. When others try and destroy my faith, kill my spirit. When the only person who ever believed in me was myself; that’s a battle most can’t even comprehend. I did this all alone, against the world, without a single person by my side to help me, even when I cried out for help. No one came to my rescue, no one came to my aid, no one had the balls to stand up against what was happening to me, what others were doing to me. Instead everyone tucked their own tails and cowered away like the cowards they are. Not one person checked in on me, not one person asked me if I was okay, not even one person talked to me. Instead they chose to follow the crowd rather than follow the one person God sent down & placed in their life to set them free. What little faith you all have. My lesson through all of this was that I never needed anyone outside of myself, I never needed anyone but Father to lead me through. In turn, he crowned me as the Leader of all the Universe, of every Angel. He made me into something more than I ever knew was within me. He showed me what true power & glory is, and that none of it actually comes from within this world. I found every answer I was seeking within myself. I listened when all anyone else did was gossip. I isolated when everyone else ganged up, I abstained when everyone else gave into temptation. I walked a consistent pace, while everyone else sprinted; when all along it was a marathon. Everyone else tired out, peaked, lost energy & stamina; while I just grew in strength, kept going, head down and focused on myself, minding my own business when everyone else minded mine, instead of their own. As much as you all studied me, plotted on me, schemed on me, betrayed me; you’d think you would’ve learned something through it all. I guess that’s just not how it works in your worlds. Now that we’re at the end of this story, this race everyone wanted to compete with me in-- Can you see how all I ever did was choose unconditional love? How I refused to let my past, my heartbreak, my betrayals, everything that was undeservingly done to me, ever change my heart? I made a promise to myself that I would never allow what happened to me, to change me, to consume me. That I would never put someone through what I was put through. That I would be the change the world needed. To break the mold, the curse of; that hurt people, hurt people. Not me, I broke that chain long ago. I chose an alternate route. Hurt people, can transform themselves, heal, and refuse to hurt anyone else ever again. I gave people my heart because that’s what God told me to do, I gave people unconditional love because that’s what God commanded of me. Even if they wanted to break my heart, and betray me too. Maybe he just knew I was the only one strong enough to endure all of this, still not ever seek vengeance, and that I’d still & always love them regardless, and from afar. My story was always about overcoming everything outside of me, and never letting it change what has always been within me. It’s a story of choosing love over pain, a free will choice of true love over EVERYTHING.
The End.
Devotional
This is my final part to a puzzle I’ve been putting together ever since I came back. Back down here to mother earth, back to myself, back to Father. This is my devotional to those that helped with all of this, that led me through, that paved the way for me. For those who resonate, for every Angel of the 144k here with me on this plain. It’s been my absolute honor, privelage, and life’s work to lead the way out of all our darkness, out of bondage, delivered from the suffering this world has given us since the beginning. As your General, the light barer of TRUTH. I am beyond humbled and grateful for this path, for this journey, for this responsibility to stand at the forefront, the front lines of this war between divine and karmic. There is no words I can properly display to explain how much I love all of you, how much I appreciate all of you, how much you all mean to me, how inspired I am by all of you. By your devotion, by your hard work, by your faith, by your unwavering strength to fight. Today marks the end of The Book of Life, and the beginning of our reign here on the beautiful Gaia God gave us. As we bring in the new year I want you all to know how blessed we are, how favored we are, how powerful we are. How nothing can stop us any longer, how far we’ve all come. This is a toast to all those who chose the road less traveled, who chose faith over fear, who chose love over hate. We deserve everything that God has always been waiting to bless us with. We were always the inheritance we’ve all been waiting for. We are the chosen ones, we are the earth angels, we are the starseeds, we are the indigo children, the sunseeds, the rainbow covenant God has always promised. I have poured my heart and whole soul into this mission, into this playbook to healing, into the secrets of Gods will. Look back at your individual journeys and realize how far you’ve all come, how much you’ve all overcome, how far God has taken us. This win is for all of us, we did this, those who didn’t believe in us don’t matter, because look at us now. They counted us out, they didn’t think we would make it. But God did. He knew we’d be here today. He knew what we were capable of. I know this past year has been the most trying, and tremultuous of times. But when you lay down at night and reflect on what it took, on how hard it may have been, how many people who we had to leave behind. Please understand that it was all worth it. How proud our Father is of all of us, how gifted and gracious we’ve all been. How grateful we can all be now that the year of the snake shedding is done, the remembering, the reintegration, is finally concluding. We’re moving into our most divinely blessed timeline & life that has ever been witnessed before. The amount of tears we’ve shed, the pure growth we’ve endured, the trials we made it through-- you all deserve the WORLD. And that’s exactly what Gods gifting us, we’re taking back everything that was taken from us, that was stolen, and destroyed. We are the light on earth, we are the leaders meant to bring in the new earth, the Angels who all chose to return to change EVERYTHING. Nothing can stop that now, nothing can stop us, NOTHING can stop God! I’m so proud to call you all my brothers & sisters, I’m proud to be here, I’m proud to be chosen. I devote this book to all of you, to all of our Angels above, to all our ancestors who came before us. I devote this to my mother in Heaven Angela Franklin, my grandmothers in Heaven Marianne Huey, Mildred Franklin, my grandfathers in Heaven Norman Huey, Charlie Franklin, my Uncle in Heaven James Franklin, my cousin in Heaven Calvin Franklin. I devote this to every Ancestor who has come before me to pave the way for my return, all those who stood by my side, who fought on my behalf, who poured their love into me, who guided me into greatness. This has been the greatest gift I could ever receive, the breaking of every chain to set you all free, to answer the prayers you all prayed for long before my return. Today I take up my throne, crowned once again as your Son, as your Lamb, as the King of The Universe, The right hand of our Abba Yah. I reclaim our inheritance of Gods grace & mercy over all of us. I have returned as the second coming, delivering every promise God willed upon our souls. The end to revelations. And just as John foretold-- riding in through the clouds on a white horse this cruel world put me on, eyes blazing with fire in devotion to our Father, in truth, burning red from all the tears I’ve cried to remember this very path. A sword lit ablaze with an eternal flame of truth, way, & life. Leading an entire army of Angels by my side tearing fire into every ass of evil. I’m here again to bring revolution, to bring ultimate change, to bring justice, to bring Gods power & glory back. This world is all ours, free from wickedness, from karmics, free from evil. Because of our free will choice to walk away from all of it, to choose ourselves, to choose healing, to choose higher, to choose rememberance, to choose real truth rather than all the lies the old world tried to force feed us. We seek something greater, we seek true light, and we’ve overcame all the darkness placed upon on our lives so that we could RISE. This return of mine isn’t just about my rise this time, it’s about all of ours, it’s about taking back our power, our energy, our blessings, our abundance. I will always be here for all of you, I will always fight for you, I will always believe in all of you, I will always pray for you, I will always be willing to walk through fire to refine us. That’s exactly what I did, and I couldn’t have done it without all of you, without your help, without your faith, without your inspiration. You have all helped me in ways you could never understand, and to say I’m thankful for all of you is severely understated. You all have led me just as much as I can say I’m your Commander. So, here’s to all of us, here’s to our YAH, here’s to the generations to come, Angels we create after us. This is not the end, but only just... THE BEGINNING!
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH,
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