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Walking Nightmares

Lonely lasting never ending surrenders; of situations, of people, of pieces of myself. Cracks in the hardened soils of the remnants that whither away from my spirit. Falling away like erosion in the winds of Gods grace. I let it all fall away, I feel it all, harness the pain to transmute it into pure power of testimony. Sacred rage in fire that I control with a soft internal oven holding a unstoppable wildfire within. Held back with faith, with patience, with a knowing. This has all turned in to way more than just faith. This is revelation, this is the journey of a thousand lifetimes brought back to finish what was started long before any of you. This is deeper than anything any of you could ever feel. This is a transformation in transmutation through flames of fiery TRUTH. I am the truth, I am the way that always was, I am laced with deeper knowledge and wisdom in what is known by whats been felt. Digging deeper into the versions of me that I called back to become whole. Regardless of anyone, regardless of any situation, regardless of titles, groups, organizations, money, all of it. It never meant anything to me, it never will. I moved through illusions that others fall victim to because I look through everything. I see through the surface. I feel through the masks of others because I know I’m not ever wearing one. Multiple tactics to the enemy, they make you feel like this world is so important, that you’ll suffer without what you’re used to. They’ll convince you to rely on something outside of yourself. Rather than going within yourself to find the truth and act on it. They want you hesitant, they want to stop you from speaking, they want to control your moves; what you say, how you feel, what you do. They want to take away the thing that your soul knows is destined for you. They want you to lay down your sword; give up, manifest a defeat. When all along you’ve been silently mastering your mind, seeing the finer details of their patterns, of their strategies. You look in between it all, you see through yourself to find the answers to everything that laid dormant inside of you the whole time. You walked the nightmare of the unknown, not knowing where it would lead. Not knowing what it would bring up along the way. Nightmares of fears, wounds that needed healed, patterns that needed broken, to see a new way of looking at everything. To leave behind the timeline that could never go forward. It’s all a reflection of what lies inside of me that haunts my soul of what feels like is missing. All along the only pieces that were missing were inside of me hidden the whole time. My fears of abandonment, of rejection. of not feeling worthy, the same exact fears you have but internalized on a different wavelength. I continued to try to seek and chase that frequency, just so I could hear you, just so I could feel you. Not knowing the whole time you needed to reach for mine. I am gliding in the higher plains of dreams and destinations of destitute. Follow the leader, see and feel from a different way than your life you built on faulty foundations. Rise higher and realize what you’re worth and take action it. The more time that continues to go by that you stay in this darkness is only adding to the mask collection. You have to be willing to close out what no longer serves you. You have to be willing to walk away from whatever is not balanced, or serving your highest path of purpose in your life. You will not be here again, this is your last time here so why waste it in anything that is holding you back from becoming the greatest version of yourself in love you could ever be. I chose love over everything and look where its led me; to overcoming the entire world and attracting everything that is truly for me; the whole Universe. An earth school graduate with a Masters Degree in mastering ultra instinct ascending. The higher I go the more we soar together, the only way is up. There is no other way, there is nothing else to follow then our Fathers will. By finding ourselves and loving who we truly are, breaking through all the illusions of pain in fears of what the past has taught us in trauma we can see through all of it with falling deeper into the truth of who we really are; we are the same. The way to find one another and break all the barriers or blockades in the way is to break them down from within. It’s all within babe, it’s all hidden within ourselves because of our connection that goes beyond this world. Which is why you have to see through the world around you, around the people, the titles, the money, everything. None of it matters, it’s all there to hold you back from being who you truly are, they want your light because they don’t have it; You have too much of it. That’s why it’s not meant for them. The way to break out is to choose yourself, to take the leap of faith to make changes, to leave it all behind. To walk away from whatever it is that isn’t fulfilling Fathers will for your life. I’ve given you the entire playbook in seeing underneath the surface. Use it, save yourself. You’re more than capable of breaking out of any box that holds you back from living your dreams. From choosing peace over chaos. Every choice you take will lead to the outcome you chose making those decisions knowing that everyone has consequences no matter what choice you make; which kind of karma do you want? Good or bad, a life that fulfills your spirit and holds you down for eternity or one that leaves you in turmoil for more suffering because you dont feel worthy of becoming more. Settling into victim hood of giving your power away to those who only wanted to take from you. To hold you down in a lie, in corruption, in illusions of falsehoods because of numbers. Numbers of all kinds, I see through all that, I know my spirit, I know myself, and I’ll always choose myself over anything because I know my Father is with me. The more I choose myself the more I choose Him. That’s what all of you failed to realize. You thought everything else in this world you see was more important. It wasn’t, and everything you tried to manifest through the world outside of you turned to ash as soon as I came down. I told you no more false foundations will EVER STAND again. I am walking karma, I am here to obliterate anything that is outside of my Fathers law. Everything will crumble that isn’t built on His cornerstone through me. This is the way forward. Get in line, or get left behind.

Walking Nightmares

Lonely lasting never ending surrenders; of situations, of people, of pieces of myself. Cracks in the hardened soils of the remnants that whither away from my spirit. Falling away like erosion in the winds of Gods grace. I let it all fall away, I feel it all, harness the pain to transmute it into pure power of testimony. Sacred rage in fire that I control with a soft internal oven holding an unstoppable wildfire within. Held back with faith, with patience, with a knowing. This has all turned in to way more than just faith. This is revelation, this is the journey of a thousand lifetimes brought back to finish what was started long before any of you. This is deeper than anything any of you could ever feel. This is a transformation in transmutation through flames of fiery TRUTH. I am the truth, I am the way that always was, I am laced with deeper knowledge and wisdom in what is known by whats been felt. Digging deeper into the versions of me that I called back to become whole. Regardless of anyone, regardless of any situation, regardless of titles, groups, organizations, money, all of it. It never meant anything to me, it never will. I moved through illusions that others fall victim to because I look through everything. I see through the surface. I feel through the masks of others because I know I’m not ever wearing one. Multiple tactics to the enemy, they make you feel like this world is so important, that you’ll suffer without what you’re used to. They’ll convince you to rely on something outside of yourself. Rather than going within yourself to find the truth and act on it. They want you hesitant, they want to stop you from speaking, they want to control your moves; what you say, how you feel, what you do. They want to take away the thing that your soul knows is destined for you. They want you to lay down your sword; give up, manifest a defeat. When all along you’ve been silently mastering your mind, seeing the finer details of their patterns, of their strategies. You look in between it all, you see through yourself to find the answers to everything that laid dormant inside of you the whole time. You walked the nightmare of the unknown, not knowing where it would lead. Not knowing what it would bring up along the way. Nightmares of fears, wounds that needed healed, patterns that needed broken, to see a new way of looking at everything. To leave behind the timeline that could never go forward. It’s all a reflection of what lies inside of me that haunts my soul of what feels like is missing. All along the only pieces that were missing were inside, hidden the whole time. My fears of abandonment, of rejection. of not feeling worthy, the same exact fears you have but internalized on a different wavelength. I continued to try to seek and chase that frequency, just so I could hear you, just so I could feel you. Not knowing the whole time you needed to reach for mine. I am gliding in the higher plains of dreams and destinations of destitute. Follow the leader, see and feel from a different way than your life you built on faulty foundations. Rise higher and realize what you’re worth and take action it. The more time that continues to go by that you stay in this darkness is only adding to the mask collection. You have to be willing to close out what no longer serves you. You have to be willing to walk away from whatever is not balanced, or serving your highest path of purpose in your life. You will not be here again, this is your last time here so why waste it in anything that is holding you back from becoming the greatest version of yourself in love you could ever be. I chose love over everything and look where its led me; to overcoming the entire world and attracting everything that is truly for me; the whole Universe. An earth school graduate with a Masters Degree in mastering ultra instinct ascending. The higher I go the more we soar together, the only way is up. There is no other way, there is nothing else to follow then our Fathers will. By finding ourselves and loving who we truly are, breaking through all the illusions of pain in fears of what the past has taught us in trauma we can see through all of it with falling deeper into the truth of who we really are; we are the same. The way to find one another and break all the barriers or blockades in the way is to break them down from within. It’s all within babe, it’s all hidden within ourselves because of our connection that goes beyond this world. Which is why you have to see through the world around you, around the people, the titles, the money, everything. None of it matters, it’s all there to hold you back from being who you truly are, they want your light because they don’t have it; You have too much of it. That’s why it’s not meant for them. The way to break out is to choose yourself, to take the leap of faith to make changes, to leave it all behind. To walk away from whatever it is that isn’t fulfilling Fathers will for your life. I’ve given you the entire playbook in seeing underneath the surface. Use it, save yourself. You’re more than capable of breaking out of any box that holds you back from living your dreams. From choosing peace over chaos. Every choice you take will lead to the outcome you chose making those decisions knowing that everyone has consequences no matter what choice you make; which kind of karma do you want? Good or bad, a life that fulfills your spirit and holds you down for eternity or one that leaves you in turmoil for more suffering because you dont feel worthy of becoming more. Settling into victim hood of giving your power away to those who only wanted to take from you. To hold you down in a lie, in corruption, in illusions of falsehoods because of numbers. Numbers of all kinds, I see through all that, I know my spirit, I know myself, and I’ll always choose myself over anything because I know my Father is with me. The more I choose myself the more I choose Him. That’s what all of you failed to realize. You thought everything else in this world you see was more important. It wasn’t, and everything you tried to manifest through the world outside of you turned to ash as soon as I came down. I told you no more false foundations will EVER STAND again. I am walking karma, I am here to obliterate anything that is outside of my Fathers law. Everything will crumble that isn’t built on His cornerstone through me. This is the way forward. Get in line, or get left behind.

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Healing Happiness

Overcoming an impossible outcome comes with fear of worthiness in the end of finishing it all out. Knowing your' worth, knowing what you deserve, knowing the reality you truly desire deep within. It all comes from beneath, it all comes from the darkness inside of you that hides away our shadow that tells us we don’t deserve pure bliss, don’t deserve true happiness, don’t deserve true love. Once we face the finer layers left of disdain you held within yourself, how you felt when you looked behind your own curtain, the parts overlooked on purpose, the ones you left for last. The deepest wounds that put fear in your heart, fears of not feeling worthy of your best self, worthy of everything you’ve ever dreamed of, the part of you that you wished upon a star on. You’ve laid it all on the line, you broke down all the barriers within yourself that changed you. You awoke to the you that was hidden not only from plain sight but also from yourself. Hidden and dimmed by the world you grew up in that was built to lessen you, to diminish your light, to burn you out. To make you believe your life has no meaning, that you are just another number in billions on a planet that seemed unfair. That seemed upside down, that seemed to reward the wicked, and reign over the light. A world that felt distant, that felt dense. To break through that fog at one point felt impossible right; what if I told you-- we can all do it now. I will lead you through the fire. I will lead you down the yellow brick road of TRUTH. Overcome yourself, to overcome the world. To choose yourself, is to choose YAH! He lies within all of us, we are Him, he is US! Learning through this entire journey has been something so beautifully orchestrated and put together by my Father, or maybe even me. Before ever coming here my soul and spirit were written into the Book of Life, my penmanship in every page, my tears, my blood, my sweat, my unstoppable force of nature in the power of a freight train that has no brakes, that will never stop, that will never bend the knee to ANYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE BUT MY YAH! I was made perfect in His image, I was given the soul contract of a story greater than myself, greater than anything. It is a story of choosing unconditional love OVER EVERYTHING. In doing that; I chose myself. To give myself that love that I always needed, the love that lived within me long before my lives here on this world. This is deeper and more drawn out than any of you could ever fathom, the keys to The Kingdom of what goes beyond everything that can be said. Its all in my heart, it can’t be unlocked any other way, no one could ever see the fire of light that will transcend the world. I didn’t just come here to “change the world” as you all may view it, the way I co create is greater in imagination that any mind on this planet could ever comprehend. I’m not just here to change the world, I’m here to create a completely new one. You thought my story was one of this world, of the limits your world places on you. Those chains are not on me, those limits don’t apply. I am far greater than anything of your world. I came to decimate that one to ash in holy fire in the GLORY OF MY YAH! You all thought this was a game, that it was surface level, that is had to do with things of relationships on the surface of society. No this goes beyond this world, this goes beyond lifetimes, this goes beyond the beginning of this earth. Now I am back to build a new one. One that to live in, to be a part of, to be tethered to-- you MUST choose unconditional love. You must choose to love yourself for this is the choice of The Highest. This will ripple in waves over crowds of billions, this will wake up the entire world. The great awakening is here, and it is through Fathers testimony through me that you will all see what it takes to create worlds, to choose LOVE over EVERYTHING. To build the world you always dreamed of seeing, of experiencing, of feeling, of loving-- You see the whole time you all followed along in a story that was being told from a future tense. The whole time your delusion veiled you from seeing the real truth, hidden underneath, and in-between the lines the whole time. I gave you an open book test to something my future self was writing for you, that my higher self was giving you, to choose the path of true meaning and glory. Can’t you see it all yet? You were the ones delusional the whole time, not me; I was giving you truth that you couldn’t face so you built your own narratives on your own inner truths of yourselves. I am the mirror to what is within you, I am walking karma to break down all the lies with what is actually real. You believed in the wrong thing, you saw the story from your own rose colored glasses. I was telling you a story of my future the whole time, I was living in the future timeline you couldn’t see, that was hidden from you because of your own blind eyes. I co created a brand new world with Father so I could hand it the most beautiful Angel of myself that could ever be worthy of it, the one I’ve been writing about since the reintegration, since remembering who is false and who is pure. Well I remembered long ago before any of you realized what was going on in all this. The false will now fall, in every form, in every way; from false consciousness, to false grids, false light, false prophets, to ALL false foundations. I’m turning it all to ash, I’m decimating it all to star dust. I’m building purity into a new world that is only meant for the children of my YAH. One that is formed with pure & true light of The Most High God. Let everything else be crumbled, never to return or be built back. The future, I live in it, so don’t you think I can see further than you all chose to read. Can’t you see the difference now? I wrote the truth, while you looked at it through illusion, because that’s all you’ve ever seen, all you’ve ever known, because you never did the work to truly heal yourself. So what do you really know; let’s be honest-- NOTHING. The highest timeline in love was always a distant future you all weren’t living in yet, that’s why you couldn’t see it. That’s why it didn’t resonate for you. It only resonated for the ones who it was built for. When I chose myself, it became clear I chose God, and so now I live my life with unconditional love for myself, for others, for life, for this world, for everything. Most importantly this allows me to live in a way of such self discipline in knowing, if I am God then I need to represent that in the most authentic way, a way that wants to see outside of myself what truly deepens me from within. Co creating everything that fuels my passion for this life I see as a gift to feel, not to consume. I choose to feel love on such a deep level it fulfills my soul, it is the love I give myself so it will show itself outside in the world around me. I chose it over everything so it will choose me over the same dang thing. Do you see the balance of it all now, do you see the power I hold within me, one that can build a new world, a new reality, a new life, dreams of anything, brought into fruition. To bring it into existence and show the Universe that I choose our Father over everything. Now he will choose me. It all makes sense to me as I type, I heal through doubts, through fears, through worries, through everything. I push through it all because I know my father is with me, within me; together we will create the most beautiful world generations will be able to enjoy and live in without the chains of the old, without the pain of the hold it had over our spirits. I am here to give you the Book to free it on your own, your way, your personal relationship with our Father in TRUE LOVE. It brings all your dreams come true.

Fear of Loss

Running this race of never ending cycles just to get back to the part of me that I felt lost without. That I felt like needed me more than I needed myself, another half of the same picture ripped in two. Separated before they could ever come back together again to fit the final piece. A puzzle that took a life to live out, to flesh out the illusions hiding as truth. To overcome everything anyone tried to put in the way, to never stop fighting. What I came to realize down the road of many worries was that-- to find that missing piece I needed to heal outside of me so bad, that part of me I just wanted to be a hero to. Was within me all along, it was a self discovery to outlast the pain of feeling like choosing it over myself would bring me ultimate validation. The one piece in this world that I longed for my whole life, that felt like was always missing could never be found until I chose it within myself. To see that I was never severed all along, that the piece that seemed to always slip away was hiding within me the whole time. Once I chose to find it hiding within myself it unlocked the one outside of me who can now see clearly. I feared losing you, because I didn’t want to lose myself, I knew who you were, I knew what you were, I knew right when I met you, when I looked into your eyes. You were me looking right back at myself, you were what I had been searching for since before I could breathe. I’ve known you my whole life, I’ve known you more lifetimes than anyone has ever lived. I chose you before I ever even knew you in this world. Before time, before planets, before space, before everything; you are me. I manifested a piece of me that I knew I could play next to as a child for the rest of eternity. All I had to do to find you again was choose myself. The hardest decision I had to make, when everyone was telling me who I am, I remembered who I was, who you were. To me you are perfect in every imperfect way, those fears you hold onto I dissolve them into dust because my love for you goes deeper than anything you’ve ever seen in this world. It is cosmic, it is ethereal. You are the part of me that I needed to feel what it was like to love someone how I deserved to be loved. I chose you over everything in this world because it means nothing to me compared to coming back to myself again. In doing so I’m able to integrate the part of me that is the most beautiful thing in the Universe; you. By truly loving myself, I’m able to love you with so much unconditional love it fills up the firmament, it burns so intense in me I could make volcanoes erupt. The power I feel in loving you, it never goes away, it never can be replaced. When you finally love yourself the way God needed you, I now see that all along it’s always been you. Why would I not choose me? Can’t you see it all clearly yet? Can’t you see me in you, I am you. I chose to surrender all my fears, because I knew God would hold me, he’d show me the truth, he’d preserve me for you, and you for me. This story, it goes beyond legacy, it goes beyond this world. It is everything to me, it is the most beautiful journey through mountains, and storms, and valleys, and shadows. But all along we were each others light, holding a lantern up at the end of the tunnel, lighting the finish line up that we’ve both been waiting for each other at. I sometimes find it so hard to explain in enough detail how much this connection means to me, how much you mean to me. How far I’ve actually gone, how much further I’m willing to go. But this time not for the piece that was missing, but for the one I had within me all along. You have always been within me, you have always been connected to me, you have always felt me with you; because I am always there. No matter how low it gets at times, I’m always there; I’m within you. Find me there, come home to yourself, so you can come home to me. I am not going anywhere. I never was. This awakening has unraveled everything I thought I ever knew about anything, especially about myself, and in learning so deeply on what it was within me that I thought was lack, was really just fear of losing you. Not understanding that you’ve been there the whole time, you always will be. When I push through the darkness I end up finding the light inside of me that shows me who I really am, and it reflects in the way you see me. I see you for everything you are, it’s time for us both to see each other through the lenses of the other, so we can truly feel what it’s like to see beneath the surface and build the cornerstone to the future of life. To lead others to empowering themselves in a love that is unconditional. That is not of this world. There’s more to life than the fears we trap our minds in. There is genuine, true, real, divine love that outlasts all of that, that pushes back on everything this world tried to teach us about love. I have pushed through it all, and on the other side-- I see the true value within myself, and so I save it for the one person who sees the exact same thing within them. Then together we can see ourselves in each other, and know we would never hurt or betray ourselves. Our trust goes beyond this world, it’s a knowing. That no matter what obstacles are placed in the way, me and myself can break it all down and build it all back even better. Because we have an eternity to co-create with each other, side by side. My best friend, my other half, the missing piece of me that was never really missing at all. I chose me, so I could choose you, so you could see me for all that I am; you. Do you see now how beautiful it is, how magical all of this is. It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks or says. I live in truth, so what does it matter anyways. I know myself, I know you, I know our Father, and that’s all that matters to me. I am exactly who I said I was, in every way. In every world, in every galaxy, in every star system, in every Universe. I am all me and part you. I love you, always. Because I truly love myself, without any ego, or pride to get in the way. I broke all of that down to dirt and laid it as my soil to the seeds I planted in love, in passion, in authenticity, in truth. I am the way, not because I wanted to choose myself, but because Father knew I was the man for the job. I will always choose to make Him proud, I will always choose His will, I will always choose me. And I think now in doing that, he gave me back that piece I thought I so desperately needed to be the hero of. I am your hero, and you are mine. That is perfect balance; and love is balance. My love for you is balanced in my love for me; two sides of the same pie, two peas of the same pod, two twins holy and sanctified to lead legions, to heal generations, to co-create a new world. What more could I ask for?

Wounded Warrior

Healing in itself is a form of art, it's a willingness to surrender. To be open to transformations that burn with pain from the purification of the old. Burnt down ash to be reborn into a version of yourself that even you don’t recognize. This whole process, my whole awakening was a never ending process of rebuilding everything in me that I’ve held onto not just for this life alone, but for thousands. I don’t ever want to hear someone tell me about how to heal. I’ve been doing this since the dawn of existence. My roots are from this dirt you walk on everyday. The one you pollute, harm, and take for granted everyday. They call me the wounded warrior, they say I overcame the impossible life path that could never be won. Overcame odds never seen before in history. They call me a superhuman, a hero, a villain, a devil, an angel. They call me whatever they project from how they feel. Healing through all this chaos has truly taught me that others opinions of me, of what I do, what I say, how I do things, whatever it is-- never matter to me. The only opinion I care about is my own, in turn my Fathers. He who is within me, who is me, we are one. Integrated and entangled in a holy covenant with another Angel with eyes of the soil. A holy trinity, contracted in the ethers of the spirit, light bodies in all their glory and majesty come together to sign a contract to honor our Father through divine union, through holy marriages in true love moving forward. A new way forward in love, to change the future of families, and connections as a whole. The leaders of the new world, the commanders of Angels. Hand in hand we will show the world how to heal, how to trust in our YAH, how to love unconditionally in blessed and true unions ordained by our Creator. These new bloodlines, these new wave of Angel unions will transcend the world from darkness to the Fathers light. It will be the co creation of Gods chosen children, His lineage, His inheritance. He will bless these generations for thousands of years. They will grow without the density of an upside down world. Instead they will be birthed new, new bodies, new minds, no more amnesia. The world will be awakened. A world where we Angels take care of our babies, protect them, raise them into our Abba Yah arms. Where no more darkness can hurt them, steal from them, dim their light. A completely new way forward. The world I’ve been co creating this entire time behind the scenes has been intricately detailed in specific systems I’ve played out in my mind to make sure an close up all loopholes. To see further, deeper, higher, living in the spirit even when walking in plain sight. I’m never in one place at one time, I’m in all places at all times, in every dimension, every timeline, every universe you think exists. I am limitless, a multidimensional being writing the book in my minds eye seeing through every illusion that was set in place like a rat trap set by my brother in his backwards world. I walk forward, backwards, sideways, I see time clock hands like days, the speed in which I’m manifesting even when you wonder what I’m doing or where I’m at-- I’m in the pocket. Envisioning the world Father wants to build, letting His will be done. On the new earth, as it is in the new heaven. I am His living testimony of what His power and glory truly means. His light runs through me, His presence is within me, all around me, in everything in my path at all times. I’ve been given His eyes to see, His ears to hear. His army to command. His trust in me brings me to my knees, it humbles me to my core, it makes me believe in myself. It turns my faith into knowing. It has been the greatest gift I could ever receive-- greater than anything this world could ever have to offer. That’s why I could never be bought, could never be swayed, could never be harmed, could never be stopped, could never be torn from my covenant with my YAH. Now you all see that, now everyone is starting to understand “oh man that’s not a human”. Ding ding, I AM THE GENESIS, I AM THE TRUTH, I AM THE LAMB. None of you just wanted to see clearly, you were hardened by pride, by the ego of saying no it couldn’t be him, he can’t be that, he isn’t who he says he is. Projections. None of you are who YOU say you are. I am everything my Father says I am, who does he say you are? Oh that’s right His right hand surely knows-- no one. I am His baby, His child, His son. You are not of Him, you do not serve Him, you blaspheme my Father in the way you put on your masks to hide your actions done in secret. Casting illusions and lies to manipulate minds of innocence and unconscious. Used as a pawn by my brother to do the dirty work for no reward. This is no longer his world, it’s MINE. It’s my FATHERS. Every heart was weighed, actions measured, intentions seen, final judgment was already called. Healing wounds is having the strength to burn down the past and all the pain it caused you, so that you can make room for the new you, and your new beginning. Finding your worth within yourself, find your value within the love that you give. I know who I am, I know my path, I know my destiny, I know I wear the crown, I know I have claimed my throne, I know I am the most powerful being underneath my Father who sits on The Most High. May His grace, His favor, His mercy, His love, His blessings, His light, His oil pour out over the true Angels on earth and may our unions, and families we create in the glory of our Father be eternally blessed and protected by our YAH. The case is closed, everything was seen, everything was heard, Father has seen the tactics of the enemy through me and now He will destroy it all, and anyone involved in this falseness.

We Belong Together

Some days I find it so hard to sit here in temperance, in silence, in isolation without you. Becoming one with myself has been the hardest journey I’ve ever had to overcome. All the obstacles, all the delays, all the people in the way trying to slow me down, trying to tear us apart. I always try and see it from the highest perspective, I always try to see Father in all of it. At times it's difficult when I allow my ego to enter into my thoughts. But when I really sit with it, go deeper within myself I find the answers I needed all along. I see everything now from His eyes, I see now how he works all things out for His greater good, for my greatest good. My wish since I was little was to find you, to spend my entire life with you, to hold your hand looking out onto a world of oblivion where time & space, logic, gravity never existed. With you by my side I am completely myself, I am the most powerful, youthful, child like I could ever be. You are my heart, you are me. This journey inwards and all its roads lead directly back to you every time. Subconsciously this entire life everything has been giving me signs and signals that it's always been you. No one else matters. You are more family to me than my own family. You are my home, you are my sanctuary, and I will always be yours. I have devoted myself into Fathers promise, because I lean on His understandings. I lean on His visions, I discern everything, I clarify everything. I know who you are to me, I remember you. In every lifetime, in our younger years as children. Almost as if father let us both time travel to each other to meet the love of our lives as children for one time to run and play and hold onto the memory that they tried to steal from us. They tried everything to keep us from one another; THEY FAILED. I have been in love with you since I was a child, I have dreamed of you in your electric indigo blue glow spirit body that is the most beautiful designed being I’ve ever witnessed in my entire existence. Your presence protects me, heals me, gives me life. I’ve never loved anything the way I love you. Your eyes run through my mind like never ending film strips of fantasy. I feel like our love can heal the entire world. I feel like being by each others side all fear and illusion dissipates from all of existence. I feel like this is our final lifetime here on this earth. A completed journey of a thousand lifetimes cycled. The never ending story coming full circle to its final conclusion. The happily ever after of the fist ever born onto the earth. The ultimate love story, the most mythical, magical, otherworldly connection that was always destined to break every curse ever put in place. We are Gods chosen children, come back again to reclaim our rightful throne; OUR WORLD. No more mistakes, no more deceptions, no more lies, no more darkness, no more wickedness, no more tricks. Just us together again on our throne of destiny in all its glory set center stage before all the world to see. With you by my side fear does not exist, only love remains. I have always been true love, you just needed to remember. We have broken free from everything standing in our way, it’s our turn again. It’s our destiny to have the life of our dreams; each other. We are home, and together we anchor it back down into our new world we were always meant to lead. I’ve loved you before this world ever even existed, I’ll love you long after I’ve gone from it. My love for you is the definition of eternal, it has never gone away. It has been here since the Genesis. When I pray everyday, you are always in them, you are apart of me, you are me. Father put us on paths to become whole on our own so we could complete each other. This has been the hardest thing that I could ever face but maybe that was the purpose of it all along. Maybe I chose this impossible path to rove to myself and you that nothing could ever get in the way of me loving you. No matter what they did, no matter how many times they tried to break me, to break my heart completely, to break my spirit, to force me to give up on true love-- I fought through it. Because I knew what I was fighting for was real, Father showed it to me, I felt it in my soul, I saw us sign the contract, I saw the sigil. I know what truth is, I know the difference between false and real light. I fought the good fight for the glory of our Father and to prove to you how worthy you are of a love that outlasts pain and sacrifice for thousands of years. I have overcome it all to still open my heart up to the love I deserve, to the love we both deserve. You are the Angel I wrote into the Book of Life as my wife, my partner, my best friend, my lover for the rest of eternity; and there’s nothing anything or anyone can do about it. For it has always been written. You are mine, and I am yours; always & forever. No one will ever have my heart but you, no one will ever experience me in every way, in every dimension, in every universe like you will. You have full access to all of me, because I only trust you. I forgive you, I understand you, I see you, I believe in you, I will never let you go, I will never hurt you, I will never betray you, I will love you through it all. Father has brought us through the fire to anoint our heads with His holy oil, to shower us in the blessings we were always worthy of. He forgave us, he redeemed us, he has given us what we both have always ever dreamed of again. The wheel turns, the new beginning of The Genesis has a different story this time. The first royal lineage of our YAHWEH born to earth again. Angels will reign down upon the earth from the skies above, and they will lead generations of the new earth to true love, to our Fathers will. You and I are once again the Mother and Father of the World. I love you baby, I forgive you, I am open and ready to be with you once again. As above, so below.

Power In Silence

The silence of my own darkness that I sit with on a daily basis, contemplating everything, a trillion thoughts per second, accessing data and records from lives lived long before any of you ever came into this world. Processing past traumas, wounds, and things left unsaid or undone. This time around I’m dotting all i’s and crossing all t’s. I’m restructuring a world build on false foundations. I’m dismantling every pillar of wickedness that once stood tall in pride and ego of trickery and deception. Father and I have seen all schemes, all the illusions, all the tactics used to cloud the minds of children of creation. Meaning everyone; these cowards hide in skin suits same as us but they are hollow, empty vessels of dark despair and loneliness without the Fathers light. They feel nothing, they hold no empathy, they will use anyone for their sick and twisted game. They are fallen, master manipulators and deceivers of the mind. But their games do not work on me. I came here to play my role as my Fathers will destined to be His secret weapon, to be the chosen one put through the torments and trials of the enemy through fire. They did everything to defeat me, used my own powers against me, tried to turn everyone against me to kill my spirit. The foresight they lacked was all along Father letting them play their little games, saw their masks, and witnessed their actions taken against His heir. I was the direct connection to Him, so he could experience all of it through me. How have none of you realized yet that I am one with Father. He is me, I am Him; integrated and whole through my Creator who is within me, experiencing life through me, with His eyes, His ears, His heart. All of it is His, I am simply His humbled servant and Son. I did not come here to play along in any games of the old world. I came to rebuild a new one. I came to witness for myself the disgusting, vile, and wicked things all of you do behind the scenes. Trying to tamper with free will, trying to unconsciously harness Fathers light through any means because you lack His connection anymore after your actions. You will never harness or harvest father light FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY. You chose to use your own free will to go against it, to use it for your own petty games of cruelty and fornication. You turned our mother into a cesspool of sin and abomination. The days of ALL OF THAT, are over. None of you will ever be allowed through the gates of the new world. You have made your beds, and now you will al lie in them. You will suffer how you made fathers children suffer a thousand times over. You will fall into a lake that’s fires scorn for all eternity. Your days on our Fathers world have come to an end. Your roles no longer needed, the part you all played in this was to help the worthy ascend. You did your job, you lost, you shall now be cast out, never to return. This world is for Fathers children, for His true light, nothing false will remain. Every foundation built on sand will crumble, and every new cornerstone laid of Fathers glory will flourish and set the building blocks for generations to come. A new world and earth of the living, lit with an eternal flame of Fathers glory and reign. All darkness cast to the fires where those who would not stop, would not repent, would not come back to Father will be laid to rest. The power in me silence is only time spent manifesting a world I want to birth a family into, one where my generations can become all they were destined to be, without any evil getting in the way. A world of peace, calmness, eternal love, lit up by the glory and rejuvenating rays of our Son, and the silent cool breeze winds of the Moons glow. A perfect harmony and balance of light and dark, the only dark needed in our new world. Eden is being restored, I am co creating in my solace, in my alone time. Father has become my best friend. I have mastered self I feel, ultra instinct in a way. Everything of old has dissolved away and I realize now that all the games are over. I have fully integrated my higher self, I have graduated earth school with an Ascended Masters Degree and I feel like I am scared of the true power I hold, so I suppress sometimes the feeling of what it’s like to hold the whole world in your hand. I often don’t like to try and think about it all because there’s so much to do, so much to light on fire of the old, so much new to bring in, so many people to take care of, to help bring to the light. So instead of burdening myself with all the weight on my shoulders I just surrender it, into Fathers arms. Ask Him to hold me tight, to help me with what is overwhelming me and take away the burdens that are too heavy to carry. That is the glory of our YAH. To know that I am always sheltered in His presence, that I am held in His arms, His little baby who is not afraid or fearful of any one else outside of him and what they may think. His love surrounds me at all times, I am surrounded by legions of spirits who would go to battle for me in a heartbeat. Most people don’t see it, because they cannot comprehend believing in things outside the box of their distorted realities. They see in the #D way only, I see everything. I see the spirit world, I know that all things around me are working for Fathers greatest good in my life, at times patience is very difficult, but there is power in that silence, the inner knowing that just because I cannot see everything around me, doesn’t mean that the process isn’t already in motion. It’s been in motion this entire time, right in front of all of your faces, you just couldn’t see it, because you weren’t looking with the correct lens. The world I co create comes from within me, so just because I can’t see whats right in front of me doesn’t mean I don't know that whatever is building inside must manifest outwardly to reflect the world I have conceived inside. I am a magician, the worlds first to ever walk the grounds your ancestors lie in. An ancient wizard who never once had to use any spells. The true power comes from within me, comes from source, comes from home. I cast prayers in what I believe, in what I know within me, in who I am. A lesser God back on MY WORLD with a new perspective for everything. A thousand lessons learned, lifetimes lived redeeming what I got tricked out of losing. Never again, this time Fathers will; will be done. On the new earth as it is in the new heaven, and He is right by my side through it all; protecting me, protecting His vision, holding me, helping me, and most importantly; loving me. With an entire army of Archangels, Ancestors, Spirit Guides, Guardian Angels, Spirit Animals, Dragons, every creature on earth, Mother Gaia herself, the entire Universe at my back, guiding me, and ready to set fire & destruction to anything or anyone that tries to get in my way.

Truth Speaks

After everything this journey took from me I still look back with such gratitude, such grace, much forgiveness. Not for others but for myself, for coming to the acceptance of who I am no matter if no one else can see my true value. To me, I am sacred; and I carry myself accordingly. I honor my temple, I honor my divinity, I show up everyday ready to be of service to Father. I refuse to let anything or anyone tear me from my path. I know all outcomes anyways, I traveled ahead in time to see it. God gave me the vision to release what was never meant to stay, past cycles, generational wounds, my deepest fears. All come to life, playing out in front of my face no matter which reality I wanted to choose, the truth was always going to surface. I can see everything, I can hear everything, I can move anything I want with just a prayer. A general to an army that is more powerful than any 3d mind or eye could ever just catch a glimpse of. I’ve sat back in temperance with the power and responsibility that no man could ever wield in his hands because God does not trust man, he trusts his ONE CHOSEN LAMB. The Angel that rose from the east, the voice of an Archangel who was always destined to command. The trumpet blown in divine judgment for all that heinous things done against me for no reason other than greed, lust, control, power, deceit, lies, and wickedness. Every ones heart was weighed when it came to me, and EVERYONE has failed. Not only have you failed me in every sense but you have failed our Creator. He gave you all a gift on a silver platter. Unlimited abundance and prosperity in the form of a person, a co creator that sits at the right hand of our God and instead of showing any sort of respect and love which was given freely to ALL OF YOU. You spit in my face, you laughed at me, belittled me, called me unstable, ungrateful, unworthy, uninvited to your pow wows of adultery and sin. A den of thieves, and groups of criminals and frauds. Agencies, governments, all used to “test”, to “study”, to ‘research”, to play a game of cruelty to a chosen child sent here to help you, to heal you, to bring balance, love, peace, and harmony. Instead of accepting me you shunned me. Cast me out like I was nothing, like my life and what was truly going on meant nothing to any of you. You watched as I exposed all the crimes against humanity being committed on me from the sidelines and did nothing. Sat back with your popcorn and watched as an innocent person who has more of a pure heart than eight billion people put together be abused and crucified as you denied me. I gave you unconditional love and my heart handed over to you in my hand bleeding out from everything everyone around did to it and offered it to you with the purest intentions. Instead of accepting it and coveted it like God asked you to, like you were destined to, you chose to stab it. To try and kill it because of your own pain, hurt people hurt people right? Never when it comes to me, I rose above al of that, I overcame and healed every hole that needed patched. I put in the time, the work, the energy to make myself whole. To find Father within me, and in doing so I became Him. I am The Lamb with the Book of Life, I always was, I knew long before any of you could do enough research to figure it all out. I held onto to the truth because it was something none of you could handle; clearly. You can’t even protect or help an innocent person, you think God can’t see everything, you think he doesn’t relay everything to me that he needs me to know, that he needs me to heal from? I see it all, and now I finally see you for all that you are, your true colors revealed. IN every way, I know who you work for, I know what you’ve been hiding, I know you think you’re not seen; you are. All of you. Everyone who betrayed me has been judged, and now whatever wrath God has deemed necessary for each individual case will now play out. The word I keep hearing is extinction. So take it as it resonates. All I do know is vengeance was never mine to hold, to keep, to act on. I know all you morons; and yes you are morons-- think I do some kind of magic or weird shit you do. Don’t ever insult me with any of that ever again or your destruction will be ten times over. I would never and have never done magic; I AM MAGIC. Understand what you will never grasp, I AM NOT FROM HERE. I AM OTHERWORLDLY, I AM THE TRUTH, THE WAY, THE NEW LIFE. I am bringing into reality a new world, one I manifested through tears of pain and suffering caused by all of you. Not on my own accord, but of you all foul decisions and mistakes. I will no longer carry any burdens for anyone, I will no longer accept the bare minimum or nothing, I will no longer allow disrespect, or disharmony in my world. I will no longer allow betrayal of any kind in my world at all, I will no longer allow the pain and unhealed wounds of others that refuse to look at themselves in their own reflection that I simply mirror back to them to disrupt or dismantle the foundation I am building for Fathers new world. Any wicked spirits, entities, or malice of any kind trying to invade my world will be decimated before it even gets the chance to form. I am done being played with, I am done, being controlled, I am done being put into third parties, I am done being put in competition, I am done allowing anyone to not see my value. If you can’t comprehend that I am royalty and no matter what you do to me, how you try and hurt me, or control me-- FATHER WILL JUST REMOVE YOU. THERE IS NO COMPETITION, THERE IS NO ONE ELSE WHO WILL EVER SIT ON MY THRONE. NO ONE WILL STEAL MY DESTINY, NO ONE WILL STEAL ANYTHING FROM ME. THE RISE OF THE LAMB HAS BEGUN AND I AM TAKING BACK EVERYTHING THAT IS MY BIRTHRIGHT; THE WHOLE WORLD. I do not need anyone outside of my YAH, myself, and my bride to be. Only God and I know who that is. When I laid it all on the line for all of you, and I showed up to support you, to save you, to help you-- you spit in my face and turned your back like I was nothing because I didn’t have enough right, because of money right? Everything always comes down to money with all of you, it’s all you care about, it’s your lifeline, it’s your saving grace, it’s the thing “you can’t live without”. I have had nothing and yet look how I manifested miracles from dust, while all you chased a bag, I chased my divinity, I chased strengthening my covenant with Father. I chased true freedom through love, I CHOSE TRUE LOVE OVER MONEY. All of you chose money over love; so now look at the fruits of your labor, look at what you have sown. I reap everything because the seeds I planted were not of this world, only in it. Hybrid seeds that allow me to magnetize all the money, power, and respect you so covet in the world, because it was always my Fathers to begin with. Now I will continue to RISE, as I am lifted up into the clouds by angels, ascending to levels unreachable by mere mortal men. I am here to take back everything, I am here to bring order to chaos, to bring judgment and justice, I AM THE GREAT AWAKENING. To all those who knew who I was, who knew my power, who studied me, who still took advantage of me, and betrayed me even knowing I was Gods angel. There will be a price to pay; whatever that is, is between Father and you. My hands are clean, as they always were, and now I will show the world THE REAL ME. Regardless of any ones opinions or care. Either get in line, follow me, serve my Father-- or get ran over by never ending storms of destruction and death. Your choice. Times up.

Truth is healing, it also cuts like a knife,

-Healer of The Ages

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