Spread Your Wings 👼

Hidden under the covering in the unseen shelter I hide myself away in His refuge. I process the feelings and emotions of what it feels like to go through what was done in the dark against me. I find it hard at times to formulate the right words to express what it did to my heart, how it stained my spirit. What it felt like to have no one really listening. Cruelty I never ever deserved, whether anyone knows the whole truth or not; I do. I know everything that happened, that was planned, that was schemed, that was plotted, that was acted on, that was set up, that was stolen, that was said; the pre meditated crimes every one involved did on me. You see when I said I see all of you, I wasn’t exaggerating, I wasn’t just talking; I saw it all, I saw everyone-- God showed me everything. It cut me so deep, more than any of you know, more than I let you see. I am allowed to speak the truth, I'm allowed to express how I feel, I’m allowed to be sovereign, I’m allowed to be free from your control, I’m allowed to lead how I choose to live, I’m allowed to be who I am; all that God made me. Without fear of your judgments, or your opinions, or your own fears, or your own insecurities in yourselves. I’m allowed to change, to live a righteous life, a sinless life, a carefree life, with a free spirit; a childlike essence. It’s MY free will to use; to CHOOSE. God gave me that right, that freedom; just like he gave that same choice to all of you. I chose to create, to love, to forgive; to choose peace. You chose to hate, to tear down, to envy, to steal, to kill, to destroy; you chose war. You didn’t go to war with me though, you went to war with our Creator whether you wanted to believe in Him or not; he’s here. He’s been with me from beginning to end in all of this. All you did was mock Him by mocking me, and my faith. Something he will never take lightly, something I will never stand for. You made me stand firm through utter disbelief that greed and power can consume completely in all of you; not me. You made me call upon His army, you made me fight when all I wanted to do was show love and move on. Even after you tried to steal everything from me, hold back and delay giving me back what is all legally mine(I still haven't received one word of truth from any of you, haven't been returned a penny that's owed to me). Oh because you used all the money you stole from me to fund your crimes you tried to frame me for. Leave me for dead, hurt innocent people outside of just me. Is money truly that important to you? Is it worth a life in prison? Is it worth selling your souls? Is it worth an eternity of darkness? Is it worth throwing away everything for? Is it worth abusing and harming an innocent person for? If your answer is yes, then you are truly lost forever. Because to me it was never worth any of that, as you all can see now through my actions. I chose surrender, not to any of you; but to my Creator. I put all of it into His hands with the faith that he would balance everything out. That he would redeem me, that he would enlighten those who are searching for real truth. God said let there be light, so I shined as that truth because divine flames can’t be dimmed forever. It can’t be harvested to fund your nefarious violence and hatred. This is not your world, this is not your life; it’s mine, it’s His. None of you could be humbled enough or intelligent enough to understand that; your disease is control. You were hardened by hate, by pride. Have you never heard the famous quote? “Pride ALWAYS comes before the fall”. So it is written, so it is told. A game to you was the life of an innocent person who was only just trying to live his own life in peace. It’s the quiet ones you have to look out for, the mysterious ones, the ones overlooked, counted out, the “weird ones”. Those are the ones you probably shouldn’t F with.

With passion,

-ISAC